thantophobia|| adam banks|| sequel

nineteen

Ella Conway❤️;

practice was horrible as usual without coach. i missed him but at the same time i'm happy for him. i sigh as i finish brushing my hair. another day of school. usually i'm ok with going to school but today i wasn't in the mood, adam and i were supposed to hang out yesterday but didn't because he bailed last minute to 'hang with the boys'. i mean i wouldn't care as much if he didn't do this all the time. sure he has to hang with his friends but he blows me off constantly anymore for them, and it hurts. i walk out of the doors of the dorms and into the schools hallway.

"hey ella!" the voices of my friends greet me.

"hey guys." i say rather glumly. they all give me looks.

"what's wrong?" tom asks slinging an arm around my shoulders.i sigh.

"adam. he's been distant." i say.

"maybe he's just busy, with hockey and school." connie says. i shrug.

"i dunno, i mean he could just tell me he's busy and i would completely understand." i say sadly.

"talk to him after school and see what's up!" connie says. i nod my head.

"okay."

***

"hey! adam can we talk?" i ask adam. he was getting books out of his locker. of course there were two other varsity players standing beside him. he looks over at me and nods. he shuts his locker shut and says bye to the boys. we walk side by side out of the school and onto the front steps.

"what's up?" he asks. i could tell that he really didn't want to be here and that he was annoyed.

"what's wrong with you lately! i don't know what to think. yeah i think to the bad stuff but how could i not. you're never around anymore. and i don't know if it's that you're busy or it's something worse!" i say.
he looks shocked that all of that came out of my mouth so quickly.

"what do you even mean? I'm just busy! I can have a social life you know." He angrily says. By now steam could be coming out of my ears.

"I never said that! I wouldn't care so much if it wasn't all the time , you never being around anymore makes me think that I did something wrong!" I shout. Luckily , no one was around.

"I made some friends! Is that such a crime? Since we're pointing things out, what the hell is wrong with you lately. All clingy with Tom." He scoffs , rolling his eyes.

"I made some friends!" I mimicked him. He gives me a dirty look.

"And no , nothing bad has happened. I'm not cheating on you and I never will! All that's been happening is me hanging out with my new friends."

"Well what about the ducks? It's not even me you ignore, you completely ignore the rest of the team! You rarely talk to Charlie anymore and he's your best friend!" I yell.

"I have other friends too!"

"Were your new friends there for you? Have they had your back through everything? Would they risk EVERYTHING for you? NO! but every single duck would be there for you. hell we've been with you through your best and your worst. making new friends and forgetting about he ones that have been there with you since he beginning is the most selfish friggin thing you could do!" i yell, turning around.

"well since you think that bad of me, then why don't we just take a break!" he yells. his words completely broke me. i felt like my whole world was crashing down. this feeling in my chest was something i wish i could never feel again. i wouldn't wish this kind of pain against my own enemy.

"ella i-"

"save it!"

i continue to walk to my dorm. every step i took, another piece of my heart broke.

• i'm not okay, i'm depressed
• it broke my heart to write this :,(
• hey long time no see , how's everybody???
• i'm so sorry for being a horrible person and not updating but school and life and friends and drama have slowly taken over my life but IM BACKKKKK
• ALSO; PROTECT MY BABY ELLA SHE DOESNT DESERVE THIS!