You're Not Yourself

Friends Come and Go

Now, I know this book is about me letting go of people who decide not to be friends with me anymore and that's basically what I'm trying to get with this chapter.

Friends will always come and go, no matter what situation you've been and it could be between a fight you had with them and they decide that it was time to make new friends and not hold onto you as much which can hurt you like it did for me.

This summer I met up with someone who I was really close to through the Internet, and the whole week was turning out just perfect, here and there that would be a bit of trouble's having to put my friend under the bus when I really didn't mean to and there were times where I was there to listens and be helpful in situations the girl was in. But something triggered the last day and put the bullet through our friendship, making me lose it all. Our friendship has been broken because of what I said to her and I have apologized millions of times, sooner or later she just felt the need to let me go and say that she doesn't want to be friends with me anymore. I was beyond hurt by it, and didnt want to give up on our long lasting friendship, but I kept doing his to myself every time I tried to get my best friend back, it would just make them hate me more, so i learned to ignore and try to forget about it... I was wrong. You see, with all the footage I had of me and this girl together having a blast in her car blasting music and just talking about random stuff brought those memories again back, it makes me wish I could go back in time and tell myself to stop talking and face the fact that I was a bad driver and that I ate a lot of food and that that girl will get the man of her dreams. I guess I over reacted to much and I'm truly sorry for my well being.

Last thing I need right now is to lose more friends and end up being the worst person ever to people I met.

I'll be sure to watch what I say next time so I don't offend anyone.

Because clearly what I said to that girl really truly offended her and hurt her in a way.

I solemnly swear that I will never speak the way I did to that girl ever again!