January 5, 2018
This year I want to change, become a person who can speak without bringing up the past go old friends and ex girlfriends.
This year I want to escape from the social media web and figure my life out without having to be distracted, I'll write more in a journal then type on my phone, I'll only reply back to texts not snapchats, once in awhile I'll go back on Instagram and see who like my latest picture, maybe even post something on Facebook that I found funny.
I've come across finding myself at a point where I'm in a corner not sure where to go, my mom and brother suggest that the navy is the only thing that will get me somewhere in life and I have to admit that there right, I've done a lot of hurt in my past and I'm not repeating that again, I try to catch up with friends I don't usually see anymore but, some of those people like my friend joe may be bored and end up wanting to vape and drink while I sit there with disappointment asking myself why am here?
Others like my friend Annabella who have struggled through loss and has a broken heart FaceTimes me almost everyday now and we want to see each other more and do fun things together like make films and exchange ideas on writing, even watch ASMR on YouTube.
We make each other laugh and the only thing I see in her is that she's going through a tough time in her life where her ex-boyfriend is making a diss track about her and wanting to put me her best friend in there show, playing myself.
Once I see that script they can say goodbye to that, I don't want to be apart of something that will my best friend sick and hurt, I'm just not down for that kind of drama anymore.
My old pal Arianna I rarely see anymore, she's stuck in this group home and soon will be out on her own living with her Friend Kim out in Virginia, but what if that doesn't work out then where will she go? Will she fly out to to see her boyfriend in Florida and be with him... will she find herself an apartment and be on her own?
It's not my issue I'm just concerned about her is all.
It's 1:09 am and I have yet again have not fallen asleep at the time I'm suppose to fall asleep so imma head to bed and see ya whenever, Peace!
-Serg
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You're Not Yourself
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