You're Not Yourself

Lets get to drivin...

Way back in high school I'd always had hoped that I would get the change to be that senior who gets to drive to school after junior year, sadly I never got that opportunity because my mom was way to scared to see me drive, I was mad and angry for awhile and managed to do some pretty dumb stuff that involves driving the car when I wasn't supposed to... I took a risk, a risk from keeping me being angry about not being able to drive. I knew I could drive, in a way I was trying to prove a point to my mom that I can drive. Apparently my drivers ed teachers didn't think I was ready.
But he passed me anyway but before I could get the chance to get my drivers license I made a huge mistake in driving my brothers car one day when I wasn't supposed to. I didn't think anything would happen that day I was driving until I was heading back home from my friends house and drove the wrong way back. I was in a rush to get back home and was panicked because I didn't want my mom to find out that I took the car. I managed to get lost in a tiny neighborhood and as I found my way out a huge gardening truck comes in not sure what to do so I backed up and I hear this huge crash, with my eyes closed I was praying that wasn't my brother's car. I quickly stopped the car and got out realizing that I crushed the back of my brothers car and there was this huge dent on the side. I messed up and was so scared at that point that I called my friend asking her what to do in this situation, sadly all she did was laugh and hang up on me as I'm about to burst into tears knowing that I'm forever never getting my drivers license so I go to the nearest gas station and am where's the nearest repair shop.
A lady was nice enough to let me leave the car at a certain spot because I was trying to figure out how much this dent will cost me. I didn't think it would cost that much but surely enough it did. I call my mom and explain to her what has happened, know how angry she will be at me. She just told me to drive the car back home from where I was and so I did, luckily the car was still movable and I could drive all the way back home without getting stopped by the police. That was a day I will never forget, a day I made the biggest mistake and yet I just wanted to prove my mom that I could drive, but in reality I was just being a stupid teenager doing stupid things.

It's been some time since I've even bothered touching my brothers car also with the fact that my mom hides the key from me now a days so I don't attempt to drive on my own again.

I gotten get my drivers license on my own soon, I don't wanna take the train everywhere I go or have a friend pick me up. I want to be independent and get stuff done but with me being selfish and thinking that my mom will one day take me to get it I should just get another set of drivers ed lessons and takes the road test from there.

I'm sick of waiting for something to happen just so I can get it, time to take measures in my own hands and get the job done.

Let's get back to drivin my friends.

-Serg