You're Not Yourself

Throwback Tracks and Memories

Tonight is listen to songs me and my ex best friend use to love listening to whenever we walked around the school after school, we would have my beats pill and just laugh and sing to the songs that use to be the shit back in the day. For example, clean bandit was one of those bands that got use both into the singer Jess Glynne.

The song Real Love was one of those song that just got time to the point where I was having flashback in my mind. As I closed my eyes and thought about all the fun times My ex best friend and I had.

I can still remember the time when we were in high school, we would stay after school and practice shooting hoops in the gym whenever there wasn't really anyone there and Either me or my ex best friend kept messing up on shooting, but we just kept encouraging each other to keep trying until the both of us had to go home.

There's another time, where I can remember the time I almost committed suicide and had the thought of getting ran over by a train because there's was a point in my life where I felt so miserable with how everything in my life was going. As I listen to the song Real Love.

I remember just fooling around in the hallways with my best friend with the speaker and just played the most randomest songs, like the Channing Tatum song, since back in the day my ex best friend use to go nuts about how hot he is. As we played this song, it brought us to an uncomfortable position but we took the risk and let people who passed by us listen to it anyway laughing about the reaction they would give to us.

I change the song to a song I introduced to my ex best friend while we were going through an odd phase in life where we weren't sure we other we should keep our friendship or not but at the time she would still drive by my house and I introduced her to this one song that made us go crazy in her car.

Kill the Lights by Jess Glynne was that song and the first time I introduced it to her she wasn't 100% in love with it until she listened to the whole song and the song began to grow on her so we put on replay a few times droning around in the dark whenever we wanted to just talk and go to another town and chill there for awhile. I also remember that as the days passed by I introduced her to this inappropriate song called Daddy Issues by Trisha Paytas, we mostly laughed and sang along to a few lyrics we knew in the song and then that song grew on both of us as well as my ex best friend drive another nights of stress and the struggles we were going to share with each other.

I still have that thought of wanting to write her a letter saying how much I miss her but then again, I'm giving away powers Anand I need to prove to her that I'm better off without her as hard as it seems for me.

I hope I come across my ex-best friend one day and we can just talk like the old times and forget the bullshit fights we had in high school.

I miss them so much right now and I'm surprised I haven't cried yet but tonight are just one of those nights I wish I was in there car again jamming out to the songs we use to listen too.