You're Not Yourself

Letting Go Isn't Easy

So here and there I come across a path in my life where I tend to walk back in the past and see the old days as they once were, specific places I go there's a memory in my mind that won't leave my mind once I see it, if I see a specific person I once knew or talked to I'd get this urge to want to talk to them again but faith won't let me, not at time being but one day I hope to reconnect with them and see how that person is doing.

This is kinda of off the subject of what I I want to talk about but I feel as if it could help people cope with there inner feelings.

So last night I dreamt that I was sitting in an office or some sort of room with a desk and the walls were filled with small guns and they surrounded the entire room as of it was wallpaper, in this dream I was just sitting there filled with anger and pain that I took that all out by ruining the entire room; knocking everything off the desk to ripping the seats and then taking down the small guns off the wall but when I tried taking them all down only two feel so I guess it jus blended in with the wallpaper after all.

But that's not all that happened, I walked out still angry and then I got upset because I felt regretful on what I just did to the office/random room I was sitting in building my emotions and letting them out physically.

I go back to fix up the room and eventually felt better and then somebody walks in but I don't remember who it was.

One thing this dream has tonight me is to never let your emotions build up inside you, let them out and share them with your friends or else you might end up taking it out on your own bedroom and messing it up then you'll feel regret and want to clean it up again because you feel bad about what you did to your room.

Back to the subject of letting go, I tend to have trouble letting go to people because those people who I've met and have interacted with makes me happy, some people like my ex-best friend wasn't the greatest person to be around but I appreciated having her in my life and I still do to this day no matter how badly things went for us I'll always have a place for that person in my heart.

Somebody who I look up is another person who I have trouble letting go because no matter how many times I reach that person through email it will never be enough for that person to understand how much that person meant to me even if I leave him a long paragraph telling that person how much I've been mean to visit them and see how there doing and even seeking for advice and what not, I just can't seem to let that person go even if they don't see me and I don't see them there still on my mind 24/7.

Letting go isn't easy, you just have to take your time to realize when's the right time to do it, take all the time you need because nobody is stopping you from being you!

- Serg