You're Not Yourself

A long road ahead

Sometime I ever wonder I if I'll make it out in the world, I have but not completely...
I still have to manage to get my own apartment and a better job then what I have now and it comes to a point where I feel like I want to just give up but my mind keeps telling me to keep going.
I'm currently trying to get a better job then what I have now, I also want to get back into college because last time I felt like I threw my education down the drain without trying.
I remember just being so happy being able to walk Into class and be taught as a college student, now that I've lost that I feel like I need to just be responsible for my troubles now and take the consequences.

College at the time was a bit crazy for me not only because there was to much work building up on me but the courses I had were way to many, I should have started with at least 3 and then built my way up when I was ready. I've learned what I've done wrong now I want to redeem myself and get back on the college train again and push myself to do the work and get a darn college diploma so I can achieve something in life rather than just high school.

I don't even have my drivers license yet because my mom won't take me for my road test so it's been almost two years still not being able to drive and asking people at work if they could give me a ride home which I really hate doing because my mom keeps nagging me to get these people who drive me home a gas card or something and as much as she's right, I don't have the kind of money to be getting people gas cards to thank them for driving me home I already say thank you for driving me home when they drop me off sending them a smile 😊

I still have a long road ahead of me though and I'm so excited to see what's going to happen in the future.