Save You (Lashton AU)

Chapter 28

Warning: the subject of heaven and hell come up. I'm sorry if I offended your beliefs in any sort of way. I don't mean to, it's only mentioned like twice I believe. You can carry on now (:

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Luke's POV

I blinked my eyes open and nearly jumped ten feet when seeing two shadows beside me. When my vision fixed itself to my two friends I mumbled tiredly, "What are you doing here?" Calum frowned and looked over to Michael who was staring at me sadly.

"Where's Ash? How's he doing?" I asked anxiously when none of them spoke a word.

They looked at one another and Michael replied softly, "He isn't so good"

I sighed, knowing exactly why he wasn't alright. Just before I got sick he was afraid of losing me too and now that this is happening he's probably so upset. I never planned on leaving him, and I'm still not, but as the pain increases, the hope I once had decreases.

"You don't look okay" Michael pointed out as if I didn't already know that. He added quickly, "I know why but - you look worst than ever.." he trailed off.

I shrugged, "I have stage four cancer and less than a month to live. I feel worst with each day that passes" I tried my best to play off how scared I actually was to die. Sure there has been times I didn't want to live, but that was before I found the person I love.

I never believed in heaven or hell, but I wondered what actually does happen to people when they die. I had always imagined death to be pitch black, like a dream you don't remember having or taking a nap but never waking up again. I also believed we had only one chance at life; no afterlife or reincarnation, once you're dead it's over. Maybe it was a good thing, because I didn't want my subconscious mind, or spirit or whatever, suffering with the fact I can't touch Ashton. I think that will be much more painful than what I'm going through right now.

I suddenly coughed violently and Calum panicked, quickly leaving the room to call one of the nurses. Michael stayed and looked at lost at what to do, until one of the nurses rushed in to help me out. I have no idea what she did but my strangled coughs came to a stop and my breathing slowed dramatically, causing the heart monitor to beep excessively. She looked at it, eyes widening and more nurses came in to help her out. A doctor from earlier told Calum and Michael to leave the room so they did as told and left, leaving me to die with strangers.

I blinked a couple times, everytime I opened my eyes the people around me were in different positions, as if I had blacked out for five minutes each time. My head lolled to the side and I heard one of the fellow nurses telling the doctor, "We're losing him" but I did no effort to help them out, I was actually letting go, it seemed much more easier than staying awake.

Everything around me turned white and for a moment I had actually thought it was heaven but in a matter of seconds it all went black.

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This time when I woke up Ashton's lips were on my forehead, giving me a soft feathery kiss. I looked at my surroundings and saw the same room as before except there wasn't chaos anymore and my boyfriend was right beside me.

I looked at his face; his beautiful face. I remembered every inch and curve of it, from his hazel eyes right down to those soft lips. I couldn't get enough of him because there was so much to love, I just couldn't show it in time.

"Oh, Luke" he mumbled sadly as he took my icy hands in his warm ones. I smiled forcefully not saying a word, it's not like I didn't want to, I did but it took to much effort to put my voice into use. His fingertips brushed my hand in a poor attempt to give me comfort, it worked a little but not enough, I was still scared shitless, but I wouldn't admit that.