With You

Not Beside You

*Mitch's POV*

Just don't think about her, Mitch. Don't think about Alex. Don't think about Alex's laugh. Or her smile. Or her hair. Or her converse. Or her beanies. Or her bands... Or- I stopped my thoughts.

I turned on the radio, hoping to get my mind off of Alex.

At first, it was perfectly fine, Thrift Shop was playing. But then, the announcer said something that made me want to change the station. But I couldn't.

"Now here's a new one from 5 Seconds of Summer called Beside You!" He said.

I couldn't hold it back anymore. I pulled into the nearest parking lot and parked the car. Then, I burst into tears.

As the song played, it got worse. I knew it was my fault. I had promised that if she found the beer, she could drink some. It's all my fault.

All of it.

I lost one of my best friends and my girlfriend because I made a stupid mistake.

When I finally had calmed down a bit, I sat with the seat partially reclined and I just mouthed the words, the tears never once stopping.

I wanted to call her. I wanted to hear her voice. To hear her tell me it was going to be alright.

But I knew I couldn't. Adam would've blocked my number from her phone. And he sure as hell wouldn't let me go back to see her.

I sat in the car a few more minutes, letting the tears stop before I drove to the nearest hotel.

I sent Jerome a text saying what room I was staying in. He already knew that I was leaving, I had explained right before I left. He replied by asking when he should take Alex to come see me.

I told him to wait a couple days but that he should tell her so she won't be so upset. He agreed and said that he'd come visit tomorrow and bring Alex the day after.

I said alright and tried to sleep. It was hard not having Alex to hold on to. She wasn't here to sing me to sleep like always, even though she did it without trying.

I got out my iPod that she had put a bunch of her music on and put it on the dresser, playing her sleep playlist that she had.

It took a lot longer, but I finally fell asleep. When I woke up, I felt like I was holding her again, but then I realized that I was just hugging a pillow.

I closed my eyes again, wishing for it to be back to normal.

But I knew it wouldn't.

*BEFORE MITCH LEFT*

*Sammy's POV*

Adam stormed upstairs, pushing Mitch and Alex in front of him. The second we heard a door slam, we all turned and glared at Jason.

"What?! It was a mistake okay?!" He yelled.

"A MISTAKE!? A FREAKING MISTAKE?! DAMN RIGHT IT WAS A MISTAKE! ADAM'S GONNA KICK MITCH OUT NOW!" Juli screamed at him.

"SO? WHAT DO YOU CARE?!" Jason yelled in reply.

"ALEX WILL BE HEARTBROKEN. AND I CAN'T LET THAT HAPPEN TO HER!" I screamed, speaking for all of us girls.

"I WOULDN'T LET THAT HAPPEN TO MY SISTER. EVER. BUT NOW IT'S HAPPENING. AND IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT, JASON!" Hannah screamed, backing me up.

"JASON, YOU PROMISED! WE ALL DID! AND YOU BROKE THAT PROMISE!" Liv yelled.

"SO WHAT?! I MESSED UP!" Jason screamed at us.

"JASON, LEAVE. GET OUT OF THIS HOUSE. YOU CAN COME BACK WHEN YOU LEARN WHAT THOSE TWO MEAN TO US," Jerome interrupted, pointing towards the door. Jason obeyed, but before he left, Juli called after him one last time.

"OH, AND JASON? UNTIL YOU LEARN THAT IF ONE OF US HURTS, WE ALL HURT, WE'RE THROUGH," Juli yelled right before Jason slammed the front door.

*PRESENT DAY*

*Alex's POV*

I woke up, hoping to turn around and see Mitch. But he wasn't there.

I closed my eyes, letting the tears silently fall.

I missed him already.

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