Days Without You.

day 37

37th day.

this will be my last.

my last note to you, saying that I still miss and love you.

because I'm tired of feeling that way. I'm tired of waiting around and tailing around you.

I'm tired of feeling like you're using me for fame. I'm tired of feeling like you never missed me.

I'm tired of being there for you and not having the same. I'm always there when you need me, but you aren't when I do.

I'm tired of having you stick around me when you don't feel anything for me. you're around me for the whole day and yet you don't feel anything for me.

I'm tired of missing you when I know you don't miss me back. I'm here every night, writing these damn letters and you're over there not giving a single fuck about me.

I'm tired of loving you.

I'm tired of spending my time loving you and getting destroyed in return.

but it's alright.

it's okay.

it's totally fine.

I understand.

so, I've given up. that's what I'm telling everyone. I know in myself that I need to move on though.

I don't want to wait around here anymore. I don't want to stay here waiting for you. people say I deserve better and I'm going to believe them.

you already know about this.

you know that I have this written down, but you don't know it's about you. I begged you that you won't read this, but if you didn't listen to me, please don't let this change the way you look at me.

I know this all of a sudden.

but, yeah.

I hope we'll still be as close as we are now.

I don't want to say anything else. I don't want to say how my day went. this is all I have to say.

goodbye.

- Belle