Days Without You.

day 34

34th day.

you're still gone so, I didn't see you nor talk to you that much.

cheer practice took so much energy from me. I'm so tired. I need more sleep and rest.

not that you care. just wanted to let you know.

I hope you're having fun. well, seems like you are. from all the snaps you send me lol.

I've been feeling down lately.

I have no idea why. I don't think it's just one thing. I think it's all the pressure for so much things.

pressure from school, from cheer, from varsity, from people pushing me to someone else.

school just sucks. I'm not happy with my grades at all. I don't know why I can't focus. I don't know why I'm getting low grades. I just don't know.

the cheer dance competition is only a few days away and the dance isn't complete yet. yes, we've achieved a lot, but there's still polishing. I know that this will tire us so much.

varsity is hard for me too. we have so many games coming up for us this year and I don't think we're ready, we have so much things to improve on.

I just want a break from all this.

im so tired and I just want to get away from everything.

if I told you my problems, you wouldn't do anything to help anyways. yeah, you'd ask if I was okay, but that's it. nothing more, nothing less.

I don't want to expect so much from you anymore. it'll just hurt me even more.

- Belle