Days Without You.

day 24

24th day.

so, today was just okay.

tons of emotions wanted to spill out.

but I kept my cool.

it started at English as we wrote our poems. of course you don't know this, but my poem is kinda about you. it's about how I felt when I lost you.

or how I felt when you left.

I know, real cliche of me to do, but it was my emotion. and I needed to express it somehow.

then we had another subject. and they just had to put this in. they presented a piece written by a college student who has an asshole boyfriend.

not to be mean, but it reminded me of you. of us, rather. this student, her boyfriend is being such a dumbfuck and yet she says it's okay.

she says it's okay because she wants to protect her relationship. she doesn't want her boyfriend to leave her.

which was exactly how I felt.

I thought it was something that would just pass, but no. it stayed that way and ended that way.

and now I feel so confused. you say you don't have feelings for me and yet you act like you do. I don't know if you just act like this around all girls, but it's making it hard for me to move on.

it's as if you're leading me on. you know that I still have feelings for you. I'm positive that I mentioned it before.

and now this boy. he's so sweet and caring. he proves that chivalry isn't dead. I would develop feelings for him if it weren't for you hindering me. I know you're not really doing anything wrong, but I can't move on from you.

I don't even know what it is. to think of it, it's so easy. but, when I try, it just doesn't happen.

I fucking miss you like crazy.

I'll love you forever, you dumbass.

- Belle