Bleeding hearts

Chapter Twenty two

"Oh my god, Addison, what happened? What's wrong?" Em rushed toward me the minute she entered our apartment, with Logan trailing closely behind.

They found me in the same spot I had been in since the moment Dean left me. I sat at the side of the couch , my head resting back . And from the looks on both of their faces I had to have looked as bad as I felt.

"Dean and I broke up," I said in more of a whisper.

Em turned to look at Logan and then her concerned stare reconnected with mine. "What happened?" She knelt down at my side and brushed my hair away from my face, waiting for my explanation.

"I just wanted some time," I said, looking down at my hands as I twisted them nervously in my lap. "He took it all wrong. I just realized I still have so much healing and acceptance to face, and being able to give Dean all of me would be impossible until I dealt with those things first."

I took in a shuddering breath and looked up to find them both staring back at me.

I shrugged. "He took everything I said wrong, and before I knew what was happening, he was storming out of the room, angry."

Logan bent down and whispered something to Em before he kissed her softly on the temple and turned to leave.

"Where did he go?" I asked, wondering to myself why he just left without saying a word to me.

Em took a seat next to me, our shoulders now touching as she leaned in closer. "He's gonna go talk to Dean. Right now I'm sure he's hurting. He's a guy, and guys don't take rejection well, especially when they care so much about the person rejecting them. I'm sure he just needs some time to calm down, Ad. Just give him some time to calm down."

I sat next to her as I remembered every word that was spoken between Dean and I. I could almost feel my body flinching as I remembered the way he raised his voice over and over. It felt like my heart shattered into a million pieces when he slammed my door after leaving the room.

The longer I sat there, the more I realized he and I had a conversation to finish. He didn't let me finish explaining. I just needed some time, just enough to clear my mind and found out how to get help with all this anger and pain I still felt inside.

"Em" I said, breaking the silence and gaining her full attention. "Can you please come with me? I need to go talk to him. I need to finish the conversation he didn't let me complete. He needs to know I care about him, and that though I need time now, I won't need it always."

Em gave me a gentle nod of her head. "Okay " she replied. "Let's go, but I'll drive."

Dean's Pov 

I couldn't see straight. My irritation had clouded my judgement. A time when I needed to remain calm, I couldn't see past the fact that she just let go of us so easily.

I guess I thought what we had was just worth more.

It was taking everything I had not to turn around and go back to her, to hold her and tell her that I wouldn't let go, no matter how hard she pushed me away.

But my ego wouldn't let me.Plus this aching pain i was feeling in my chest made it hard to think or even breath ,it was like someone planted a fucking knife in my chest and kept turning it around .

So instead of turning around and plea with her to take me back I ended up back at the house and when the guys started handing me drink after drink, I just continued to down them as fast as they were coming. It was easier to drown out the ache in my chest then to actually accept that we were finished.

When I had reached the point where I'd had enough of the guys and the booze .

My room was dark when I entered, and I didn't see a reason to turn on the lights. I slipped off my jeans and pulled the t-shirt I was wearing over my head.

Before I even got a chance to crawl into bed a soft hand reached out for me and hooked the waistband of my boxers.

And all at once everything unfolded and became one big fucking disaster after another. 

The bedroom door came open and the bright light from the hall streamed in.

"What the fuck, Dean?" I looked back over my shoulder to see a very angry Logan standing in my now open doorway.

"It's not what it looks like,"I assured him.

"Really?" he asked, disgust lacing his voice. "Because to me it looks like you're about to climb in to bed with an almost naked Dina."

I turned back toward Dina and from the light of the hall found that she was indeed in just her bra and panties .Fuck, this didn't look good .

"Dean" Dina whined and I had never in my life ever wanted to hit a girl until that moment. "Can we get back to this or do you plan to keep me waiting even longer?"

I heard a loud gasp and my heart instantly sank because I knew the moment I looked back toward the door I would find the one person I didn't want finding me in this predicament.

My heart broke when I saw the look of hurt on her face.

Both Em and Addison stood at Logan's side. "You sure didn't wait long, did you?" she said, doing everything she could do to hold back her emotions.

"And to think I came over her to explain and talk this out. Guess I'm the idiot." She spun around on her heels and left, leaving me behind to face my sister and Logan.

"You're an asshole," Em spat. "And you're a fucking slut," she said to Dina just before she, too, turned and left.

All Logan could do was offer me a disappointing shake of his head as he backed out of the room and turned in the same direction.

"Fuck "I growled as I jerked back from Dina, hearing the fabric of my boxers strained against her tight hold. "Let go," I said, no longer caring if she tore them.

"Dean , just forget about her," she began to protest as I started searching for my clothes. "Come to bed and I'll help you forget all about whatever her name is."

"Her name is Addison,  but you fucking know that " I threw back at her. "Get out, Dina!"She looked at me as if I was joking. "I said...Get the fuck out!" Dina rose from the bed grabbing her clothes and she walked out of my room, glaring back over her shoulder.

Everything had just gotten a hell of a lot worse and I had to fix this shit.