Two successful people fell in love at the right moment and at the right time. But one of them is dealing with their own demons. They had an inner turmoil of what to do with their past. Afraid to let people know who they really are and where they com...
Early on she had a visitor in her office that she never expected to see in her entire life.
Staring in front of my window, I was bombarded with my thoughts. Recently I have flashbacks of my past that I want to forget. Things I don't want to remember because it upset me. The people who betrayed my trust. The ones who hurt me. The people who made my life a living hell. The people who always said that I'm nobody. I wanted to take my revenge and hurt them so bad. To let them know what they've done to me. I want them to feel what I've gone through hell. What my life looks like when they destroy me. I want to kill them one by one... but killing them is not the easiest way to make them suffer.
I still recall 10 years ago today. You left me when I was only four years of age. I don't know what happened no one told me that Dad had left... I almost died then, no food, no money, no bed to sleep in. But God must have loved me that He sent someone as my guardian angel. They took me in and raised me as their own. The family I have now and the most wonderful and loving parents you could ever ask for. They gave me everything, even their own name.
I have never felt so much rage right now, knowing they found me. I'll let my anger flood out in me all at once and this rage that I kept inside for many years. I have options of what I'd like to do with them. I know now what I'm capable of. I'm good at planning, so I'm gonna stick to my plan and what my hearts desire. Plan my sweet revenge on them... I will treat them like normal people do. I will treat them as one of my business partners, like a colleague, like a friend and an employee, no more no less. I won't allow them to come into my life again and destroy what I've worked hard for.
They shouldn't come back, why on earth they knew where to find me. Who told them and how..?? They even blackmailed me for my past.!! They were asking me for money and have the guts to show their face here, right here in my office, in my building, in my own world. This is my world, this is who I am right now.
I avoided them like a plague. But they were here.??!!! Right in front of my very eyes. Acting as if I'm the hideous person on earth. What the f...??!! Like I owe them my life and my success. But they don't know me at all. I'm good at hiding and controlling my emotions and I'm not gonna give them satisfaction to see me crumbled again. I am not going to let them know that I am affected by their presence. I despised them all. I will just act as good, but I'm feeling really pissed off. and I will not let them control me again. But not this time.. not this time... I've had enough of them a long time ago.
How they know it.?? When..?? I've changed my name, my physical appearance. I've gone through plastic surgery to altered my face... but I guess I'm not good at erasing my past and the people who owe me a lot. And literally, forget them.
I shouldn't be affected by their sudden reappearance in my life. They know now that I got money, fame, and power. And that's what they are craving. That's what they need from me. Telling me things that I shouldn't have forgotten.
I have to be very careful in dealing with them. I don't want people in my present life to know that I'm a MURDERER... they will not respect me... they will hate me. Especially that whatever I do and wherever I go, I always end up on the front pages of celebrity tabloids and magazines, even in newspapers. Whatever I do is being magnified by the paparazzi. I can't even go out alone with Nikolai, my fiancee being followed by paparazzi. Everyone adores me and I'm scared the hell out of me... I don't want bad things to happen. I'm not going to allow it. That's the very reason they eventually find me. Being everywhere. Even in the news. I feel suffocated right now and I can't breathe normally. I'm always on the edge. I have a scattered brain right now.
I am this person filled with bitterness consumed by hatred over the years. How can I forgive them when they abandoned me. All I am is hatred and rage and I won't give any satisfaction to whom so ever look down on me. Hatred is all that is left in me for them. This is not me.
I know I'm not done yet dealing with my own demons. I will do anything to keep them out of sight.
Alesandra, wake up. Do something about it and make it fast before it blew out of proportion. Dad and Mom do not know about it and I will protect them. This is too much for a day.
I need Diego's help.
Lately, everyone at the office was very careful not to disturb me if they know I need some privacy unless I will ask them to see me.
I work alone in my office, I always come early..so everyone comes on time. For a couple of weeks now, we never had our weekly meetings and never asked them for updates of our latest projects for a new magazine. I never asked anyone in my office, even my closest friend and ally, our Managing Director, Catalina... I never asked anyone to bring my favorite coffee latte, nor order my favorite lunch. Everyone is so affected by my sudden outburst at no particular time of the day. They sometimes hear me throwing things in my office, crashing glasses on the wall. I'm keeping myself locked up in my office. No one dares to ask me why.no one dares to know what's happening in my perfect world.
I forgot that I ask my personal assistant to come to see me at my office, standing there, facing the window looking out at the traffic, I was holding my mug, but not really holding it. I'm gripping it and my knuckles turn white and I'm clenching my jaw. I didn't know that I zoned out again.. she's been watching me very quietly and was afraid to break my silence. She knows that if I'm quiet and in my thoughts, they shouldn't intrude in my silence, they know I am easily pissed off and I will reprimand them. Because I don't want to be disturbed. I easily snapped out at them.
I heard her coughed, asking for my attention. I forgot she's here in my office. How can I have a conversation about work when my mind is elsewhere. This is the part I hate about myself.
"Ah' miss Alesandra. Pardon me for intruding but I've been watching you for 30 minutes. Do you want me to come back later.? I'll just go outside."
I looked at her and heave a sigh. My operating system is quite different from everyone else. I smiled back at her...
"It's fine, let's start. I need an update about the photoshoot we had recently. And also bring me all the photos taken. Please, tell Catalina to update me about the new projects." I said.
" Yes, ma'am I'm on it. I do have all the photos, it's here." she handed me the portfolios. " And here's the new set of models you asked." Your final decision is what they were waiting for and who you will choose for the photoshoot of our new line of accessories."
"Okay, I will let them know later. Can you bring me my fave latte? thanks." " and tell our casting director to set another go-see for these models. They should be at least 5'8 tall. I want to see them personally. Call everyone on this list."
And with that, I wave my hands dismiss her immediately. Keeping mental notes of what I need to work on. I love working it keeps my mind busy.
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