Dreams of My Past (COMPLETED)

Chapter 38 - Alejandro's illness

Alexandra. Estella pov.

The bad news.
Alejandro Renaulthè was diagnosed with Colon cancer stage 4.

She was in New York with Nikolai when she receives a call from her Mamań. She was told that her Papa's colon cancer is getting worse and his doctor found out that it was malignant and was advised to stay in the hospital for further lab tests and biopsy and his treatment and medication. She thought that he will be fine since he will have his routine check-up and treatment and promised them that she will be back to be with her Papá. She doesn't want to be hysterical on the other line while speaking to her Mamá.

This is the worst day of her life. Alesandra didn't take it lightly. Nothing has prepared her for this. She has been crying for the whole day and she can't breathe. It's suffocating her lungs.

Ohmigod!!! My heart shattered into pieces and it's not just my heart, but my entire body is breaking down on the inside. Shattering under the grief of what the doctor has told us. The hurt is so great. I frantically try to remember to breathe. If not for me, but Mamań. It's the time like this that I wish I'm a bird just flying around the sky. Free of worry, free of pain.

I need you, Papa. We still need you with Mamań. Don't leave us yet. Fight for us, Papa. You and Mamań are all I have. I don't care about anything I just want you to be better Papa. I will take care of you. I'll be there soon Papa. I love you so much with all my heart.

I pulled my knees up to my chest and wrapped my arms around my shins if I could just curl up into a ball, I wouldn't have to face real life, I'd be protected from everything around me. But this is a reality, I'd still have to live with myself for Nikolai, for Papa, for Mamań, and Catalina..my eyes already red and puffy from crying, squeezed shut to push more tears out. I let my head fall to my knees, and I pulled my legs closer to me.

No matter what I did, there was nowhere I could hide from the thoughts in my head.

Nikolai is standing in the doorway and saw Alesandra curve her body sideways and hugging her knees. He was deeply moved by what he saw.

Her eyes shifted to the side again and became glazed with a glossy layer of tears. As she blinked, they dripped from her eyelids and slid down her cheeks. She bit her lip tightly in an attempt to hide any sound that wanted to escape from her mouth. My heart sank.

Her lower lip quivered as words slowly made their way out of her mouth.

"Nikolai..." she stretches out her hands and wanting him to come closer.

Nikolai came forward to Alesandra and sit on the bed, pull her up and let her sat on his lap. She wraps her legs around his waist and place her head on his chest and hug him tight.

"Shhh.. baby I'm here. Stop crying. Don't worry. it's okay." Nikolai hugged her. Rubbing her at the back.

"Please let's go back to Paris.. please. I want to see Papa and I want to be with my Mamań..." she rested her head on his chest and felt safe and comforted by his embrace.

"Yes, baby...That's the plan will leave as soon as possible. I'm with you all the way and we will fight this and we will find the best doctor and specialist for your Papa."

Oh' Nikolai, you're my one stable force, my one stability in a world filled with chaos and I so desperately need that in my life. I love you so much.

"I just have to take care of some things back in the office and let my father know we were leaving. I'll have to make a call and advice my crew to let them know will be flying tomorrow and to get ready for the plane. Would that be alright?"