One Lucky Girl

What Did I Just Do?

I don’t know what I just did I just wanted everything to be back to normal when all I had to do was make Hef and the bored happy, do a few pictorials and some videos when I wasn’t dragging a boy into the mix. I have totally ruined everything I care about Justin so much and I know he is going to be upset by my decision. But it’s my job, I didn’t ask him to not go on tour, this is kind of my own way of going on tour. What am I supposed to do?

I went into my room and fell onto my bed letting the tears fall out. After like an hour of crying I hear my phone buzzing I grab it and look it’s Justin, I already had 2 missed calls from him. I quickly pull myself together and answer the phone “Hello?” I say “Hey babe I was starting to get worried” He said with a slight chuckle “Yeah sorry about that it was on silent.” I said

“Oh, so how was your flight?” He asked “It was okay I slept most of the way, how about you?” I asked “It was good saying goodbye to everyone sucked though.” He said “Yeah so are you excited to perform tomorrow in Dublin?” I ask “Yeah, I’m pumped.” He said “Good.” I said “Yeah I miss you.” He said “Miss you too.” I said “Are you okay babe?” He asked “Not really we need to talk.” I said “Okay.” He said with a confused tone.

I took a deep breath not sure how to start this “I’m just not sure how to say this.” I said “Are you breaking up with me?”He asked “I don’t want to but it would make things easier.” I said “Aaliyah what is going on I just left today everything was fine what happened on that plane?” He said in an angry tone I don’t blame him he was right I sat quietly collecting my thoughts “Aaliyah!” He said

“okay look the media has pictures of you and I and Hef thinks I should deny our relationship to the public and I have to do a threesome video with Nikki and some guy, and I don’t know maybe it would just be best if we weren’t together for a little bit while I’m working, I just need time to think Justin.” I said the tears began to fall down my face. “What? Denying our relationship I understand because you’re supposed to be with Hef but doing a porn video? Why do you have to do it? God I wish I would have never left then we could sort things out together in person.” He yelled “Look I’ll call you later I need to sort things out in my head.” He said in a quieter voice “Okay, I’m sorry Justin.” I said my voice cracking. “Goodbye Aaliyah.” He said hanging up.

I didn’t sleep at al last night I sat there staring at the wall just thinking about how I may have just ruined the most perfect relationship with the most greatest guy ever, gosh why and I so stupid! I grabbed some clothes and went to take a shower. After washing my hair and everything I sat under the running water as I let my tears fall I held nothing back it seemed like there were more tears than water. Then in the middle of me having a mental break down there was a knock at the door. “Yeah?” I asked “It’s Crystal may I come in?” She asked

“Yeah sure.” I said quickly standing up and wiping my tears I grabbed my towel and stepped out of the shower “Hey I just wanted to talk to you I just talked to Hef and he told me about Justin.” She said “Oh.” I said as I began to get dressed we’ve all seen each other naked at one point in time so it wasn’t awkward to get dressed in front of her. “I just wanted to say I’m sorry you’re going through such a tough time and if you need anything I’m here.” She said “Thank you! It means a lot” I said hugging her “You’re welcome” She said

“I put my towel in the bin and we exited the bathroom. “You have to do what’s right for you right now Aaliyah and at this point it would be to make Hef and the board happy, because until you leave to be with Justin you’re still working.” She said “Yeah, I know I’m just afraid that he can’t handle being with me I’ll always be that girl from Playboy that had sex with people for a lot of money, you know.” I said

“Yeah I now But Aaliyah honestly if he truly loves you he will understand.” She said “Yeah but asking him to be okay with letting me have sex with someone else why we are together isn’t okay, if he had to do it I’m not so sure I’d be okay with it.” I said “Yeah, well you start shooting that video in a week or so you can’t exactly back out now.” She said “I know.” I said “After you shoot it I’ll talk to Hef about you flying out to see Justin.” She said “Thanks” I said hugging her.

I went up to my bedroom and grabbed my phone; I lie on my bed and try calling Justin, He doesn’t answer. I sit my phone back down and get dressed I decided to book a spa day to relax myself. I walk downstairs to let Hef know where I’m going, He says its fine and to make sure I’m home by 6 to get ready for dinner at 7 we are having guests over.

I agree to be home on time and I walk out to my car I get in and put my purse in the passenger seat and head to the spa. My phone starts ringing I quickly grab it hoping its Justin; Its Nikki I debate on whether or not to answer it then I decide I should considering we would have to be working together in a week. “Hello?” I said “Hey girl what are you doing?” She asked

“Headed to the spa why?” I asked “Mind if I come with? I am coming to the mansion for dinner anyway so I can just come with you.” She said “Okay yeah sure I’ll come pick you up at your house.” I said “Okay great see you soon.” She said and then I hung up and headed to her house.