Sidemen Imagines

Positive (Simon #14)

Hope you enjoy.

"Hey guys, today I'm joined with Simon and we're going to be playing some random games that you lot suggested for us and we also have to do a forfeit if we lose", Josh said in front of the camera introducing the video. I waved to the camera when my name was said and raised a can of whipped cream so it could be seen in shot.

"The person who wins gets to splat the loser in the face with whipped cream", I say whilst opening the can before eating some it.

"Simon stop, we need that", Josh scolded me, taking the can from my hand. I frowned my lips at him but soon stopped as we started to film.

We were 10 or so minutes into the video and I had just lost. "Noooooo!" I yelled frustrated. "I didn't even press that button though!"

"Stop blaming the game Simon and take your punishment", Josh replied as he filled his hand with cream and then slapped my face with it. I flicked the cream from my eyes and reopened my mouth for air as I'd been holding my breath.

"When you lose I'll make sure to give you double the amount", I say agitated. "Or double the force", I say as I continue to wipe away more cream and childishly throw it on Josh whilst laughing.

"Hey!" Josh angrily exclaims before laughing. "Go to the bathroom and clean up in there now before my room is completely destroyed", he instructed. I stood up from my chair and threatened Josh by shoving my hands in his face before running away to the bathroom.

I closed the door out of habit and walked over the sink. I turned the tap on, put the plug in and let the sink fill up whilst I reached down for a towel. In the process of grabbing the towel, I couldn't help but see from the corner of my left eye the bin at my feet, more specifically what was inside; a pregnancy test. Crouching down close to the floor, I observed the piece of plastic; I didn't touch it I just looked closely at it. I saw that it read 3+ weeks and before I could process anything else I felt a drop of water hit my neck. I immediately sprang up from the floor, towel in hand, and quickly turned the tap off. I stared at myself in the mirror opposite me, absorbing what I'd seen; Josh, one of my best friends, was going to be a dad.

After I'd finally cleaned myself up I went back into Josh's room to finish recording. I tried to remain calm and be myself throughout the rest of the video and hopefully you couldn't tell that my mind was elsewhere the whole time. I couldn't stop thinking about how a child would be living in the house soon; I wasn't worried as such it would just be different. Luckily we only recorded for about 15 minutes before we were finished and my mind could finally wonder freely.

I helped him put away the stuff we'd been using and then exited his room; a huge weight was chiselled off my shoulders once I'd left his room and a long breath of relief trailed from my mouth as I walked to my room. I reached for the door handle and just as I was about to twist it the door was lured away from my grip. I scrunched my eyebrows inwards for a second before (Y/N) stood in front of me and then the tension in my head dissolved.

Her smile was scarred across her face and her bright eyes were beaming as usual. I stepped over the threshold and instantly reached for her waist; she hooked her arms about my neck once I'd bent over a little and then we just stood there for a moment, staring upon the other. I travelled through her enlightening eyes, thinking about only her until she whispered something and my mind switched.

"How did your video go with Josh", (Y/N) whispered to me, still smiling. His name lingered and stung me. I felt my eyes drop a little and my grin was wiped away. "Si?" (Y/N) asked and I could sense she was worried. I looked back at her, not even realising my gaze had fallen to our bathroom.

"Sorry, my brain froze for a second. The video went well though", I said neutrally watching her face as I spoke. Her eyes seemed to go hazy and her smile zipped away. She took her hands away from my neck, placed one hand in mine, and took me with her. She sat me down alongside her on our bed, a little apart but still together.

"What's on your mind Si? I know something's up." She sympathetically said, rubbing her thumb along my hand. I took a few breathes before speaking.

"I think Freya's pregnant", I managed. (Y/N) looked at me as I spoke but then dipped her head after I'd finished.

"I-I don't think she is, she would have definitely have told me if she was, I'm sure of it. What makes you think she is anyway?" (Y/N) said looking back at me.

"I was in Josh's bathroom and I saw a pregnancy test in the bin. I know I shouldn't have been nosey but I couldn't help, it was just there", I follow up with.

"Oh okay...well did you even see what it said, it might not have been positive."

"I did see it (Y/N) and it said three plus weeks so Freya must be pregnant", I conclude. There was silence for a few seconds.

"How did you feel about it when you saw it?"

"Well shocked at first but then happy for Freya and Josh, why?"

"Because its' not Freya's Simon. It's mine." (Y/N) tells me. I feel my heart pounding against my chest, trying to escape and my mouth falling open, gaunt. My eyes hang low as I continue to be star struck. I don't even get to think about it properly before (Y/N) continues. "I took the test a few days ago and didn't know how to tell you so I asked Josh what to do. He said I should tell you when I'm completely sure it's accurate and ended up leaving the test in the bin there so you wouldn't see it, but now you have."

She turns to face me after speaking to find out my reaction, I don't even look to see what hers is as I see tears forming in her eyes. She never cries, only when she hurts someone she loves, but these glassy eyes shouldn't be from hurt; she hasn't hurt me. I gently place my hand on the back of her head and lean forward, softly kissing her lips. We both pull away, inches between us, and I wipe away a tear that had fallen down her cheek.

"I don't care that you went to Josh and I don't care that you hadn't told me", I tell (Y/N) taking both her hands to rest in mine. "I do however care about you (Y/N), you mean everything to me and I guarantee you I will care just as much for the baby as I do you. I didn't know if I ever wanted a child before I'd even met you what with the sleepless nights, screaming tantrums and the huge responsibility of raising and caring for a child but I knew that when I met you I could picture us with children. You're always thinking and worrying about the future (Y/N) but I want mine with you and to have our own family. I'm not going anywhere if that's what worrying you, so you don't need to panic or cry anymore. I'm always going to be with, and support you because I love you (Y/N)."

Her lips had parted a little and she tried to stop her tears from dropping but a few trailed down her face. Her hands were also cold and very shaky in mine even when I smoothed my fingers across but I eventually saw a small trace of a smile. "I-I-I love you too Simon and I was worried...worried you wouldn't want the baby, but I'm not anymore. Everything you just said was perfect, you're perfect and I'm glad it's your child", (Y/N) says holding back her tears and managing to keep eye contact. I feel her hands steadying and leave my grip, but I shortly find them cupped against my cheeks. I sense her slowly lean in and I unconsciously take her waist into my hands before her lips touch mine.

It was a soft, long kiss filled with love and passion. We pulled away and I saw that her eyes weren't clogged with water anymore and a smile had crept back across her mouth. I smiled at her, her personality, her smile, everything about her. I kept my hands softly resting on her waist until I felt her warm touch unhook my fingers and bring my hands round to the front of her torso. There was no trace of a bump, or baby, but I knew there soon would be and I couldn't wait.

Forgot to say last week but hopefully you all got the GCSE and A level results you wanted. I'm just glad GCSE's are over, on to college now.