Fully numb
To the pain I have succumb
I no longer feel the bite of my blade
So I'll cut a little deeper
To feel again
Your passing on
Your moving forward
I wish I could
Take this journey for you
For all I've lost
There is a cost
That is dealt
It beats against
My mental health
Please help me
I'm screaming
I can't seem to breathe in
This is vile
I'm tasting bile
Starring at my own blood
That stains my hands
I'm getting reckless
And I could really wreck this
What happened to the stability I had back then
With you gone there's no way I can move
On the verge of a Purge to cleanse the Earth of myself
I'm sorry if you fear
The words that you hear but since the pain has left me too weak
I stepped aside
And let my depression speak
A/N My grandma the woman who raised me was just diagnosed with lung cancer along with a mass pressing against a nerve cluster in her neck and three blood clots and at a weight of 77 pounds it's no longer a matter of if but when I just feel so numb we just lost papa 1/15/2014 so I lost a father figure now I'm losing my mother figure since my actual mother didn't come back in my life til I was already 12 now I'm all that left of our little trio I feel so dead inside
//DarkAngel out//
