All this planning just to have another door slamming in my face and it makes me queasy how they make life out to be easy, make me out to be a disgrace when i've been working all my life, but only for you now that you're gone, I haven't got a clue what if I died tonight who would even care who would break out in tears because I'm not there, I'm sure it wouldn't hurt anyone quite that much if I went to sleep tonight and didn't wake up, and I wouldn't have to go through this pain, counting up the days we spend without each other, comparing one home to another, I wouldn't have to hurt any longer. I could put my plans to rest tie and knot in the rope and hope it holds my weight so I can finally escape my fate, which right now seems to be just to suffer I'll trade this life for a second chance to be a family, and maybe it's time to call it quits set myself free, doesn't sound that bad to me.
