"I know you can't say anything back, but I'm just going to pretend like you've missed me to, is that alright with you?" I smile though the tears as I stroke over Simon's check, I don't know if I can do this, I just want to crawl into his bed and hug him, but I know I'm not allowed to, and if I were allowed to I would not even be able to do it, it would be way to hard with my leg stuck in the brace that it's in, I can't even move my knee.
"Tobi told me that you ran off to find me, I have to say darling that it was very stupid off you, I was fine, or at least I'm better off than you, but I got hurt when everyone came running, not by the explosion, but I guess that does not make much off a difference now, you are my hero and I want you to know that, you wanted to safe me, and that makes you a hero to me, because you were willing to risk your life for me" I say as I struggle to keep it together, I know I don't have all the time in the world and I need to say what I came here to say, because there might not be a next time and Tobi was very kind to me to allow me to come, because his parents only allowed people they knew to see him, not that I can blame them.
"Simon, I need you to know how much I love you, I know we have not been dating for a long time, but the hole time that I've known you, you have made me feel special, you made me happy and you made me feel safe when I was with you, I loved every minute that we spent together and I wish that we could have a lot more off those moments, but I guess that is a long shot now, and I guess this might be the last time that I can hear you breathing, even if its through a ventilator, and it might be the last time that I can feel your heart beating" I cry out as I look at his face, his beautiful face that I thought I would get a lot more time with.
"I thought I would have a lifetime to study your face, your perfect smile and your dimples that make me weak at the knees when you show them off, I thought I would get to hear your voice and your laugh every day for the rest off our life together, I thought I would be able to look into your eyes and see the future and all your dreams come true, I wanted that so badly for you, I still want that for you, I want our life together. I thought we would settle down together, one home here in London and another summer house down in Guernsey, because you know that I love that place and I'm so sad that I might never be able to show you all the places that I've talked about." I struggle as I'm starting to just sob out the words.
"I just love you so much Simon, and I don't want to let you go, I never want to let you go, I want you to be here for the rest off my life, of our life together, I just want you with me, I don't know if I can cope with this, I don't know if I can do this. I just need you to wake up, I need you to be OK and I need you to hear you say you love me, because I love you, I love you so, so much." I say, but as I finish my last sentence, all the machines start beeping and I can see the heart monitor drop, I just grab on to him tighter, this can't be happening.
This can't happen
He can't leave
who hates me?
YOU ARE READING
Right here ~Minishaw~
FanfictionHarry is the new kid at school, how will he fit in and will he meet the love off his life?
