Right here ~Minishaw~

Chapter 32

 I wake up.

it still feels unreal.

Simon Minter, the love off my life is gone from me

Taken away

I don't even want to wake up, that would make this to real for me, I know what happened, he died after I came to him to say, maybe that was all he needed for him to let go and be at peace, Tobi said that to me yesterday after everything went down, he heard the monitors go off, he got me out off the room as quickly as he could because the doctors and nurses were rushing in and pushing me away from him, I did not even care if they pushed me or hurt me, I knew this was the end and I did not want to let go, but I was forced to. 

Tobi held me as we sat in the hallway both bawling our eyes out, I did not want to move one bit, and Tobi did not force me back into my room, we waited for almost 30 minutes while the doctors tried to safe him, but there was just no use in even trying, he was gone, yet they tried, a nurse came over to me and Tobi and just gave us both a look off sorrow and shook her head, telling us that he was gone and I can't really remember anything else, until I wake up here, in my bed again, my heart hurts so much and no one even knows how much. 

"Harry sweetheart, do you want to talk about what happened yesterday?" my mother asked me as she is stroking over my cheek. 

"no"

"I know you and Simon were friends and losing him must me hard"

"he was not just my friend" I whisper as the tears start spilling again, I want to turn away from my mom, but I can't lay on my side, I just hold my arm over both my eyes as I cry, I don't know if I can do this, I don't even want to try. 

"sweetheart, talk to me, maybe I can help"

"I don't want to talk about it"

"Harry, It's not good to bottle things up, you know that darling, you are allowed to be upset that your friend died"

"I want to be alone"

"don't shut us out darling, tell me what is going on inside your head, you can tell me"

"I just want him back, I don't want him to be gone"

"It will be alright, you will get through this, just like everything else" my mother tells me, but she just does not understand, and how can see, she does not know that I love him, or I should say I loved him. 

"my boyfriend is gone mom, I don't think I can just get through it" I blurt out without thinking about what I was saying, well I don't even care if she reacts badly now, nothing will hurt as much as losing Simon.