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Chapter 34

-  2 weeks later - 

Harry's POV

First day back at school for me, I've not been able to go because of my injured leg, but now that I'm getting around on crutches much better, my doctor gave me the OK to go back to school, well he did a week ago, but I just could not face it yet. 

I'm kind of glad and kind of not to be going back,  it's also heartbreaking going back  to the school again and I know it will be hard, it's the place that ripped my heart away from me, my Simon is gone and he will never return to me. I don't even know if I can stand in the hallway where everyone has been leaving flowers and messages to those who passed away. I don't know if I can read all the messages to Simon. 

"Harry" Tobi smiled as he picked me up at my house, I love Tobi, he has been so nice to me, offering me a lift to school, supporting me through everything that I've been through lately, well I think we have been there for each other emotionally, he just lost his best friend. 

"thanks for picking me up" I say as he takes my bag and puts it in the back seat and then he opens the door and helps me in. 

"no problem, you know Simon would have wanted me to" he tells me and I just nod, Simon would have made him do it, that was no question. Simon would have done anything for me, he tried to save me, he did not know that he would be the one that needed saving. I feel a tear braking free as I think about him, laying there in the middle off the hallway, I don't know if he suffered, he was unconscious when he was found, but we don't know if it happened right away or not. 

"Harry, are you OK?" Tobi asked as he saw that I was tearing up

"yeah, just kinda overwhelming to be going back there, without him" 

"I know" he tells me as he grabs me into a big hug, we have not even started our drive to school and I'm already crying. 

"I'm OK" I tell him as he lets me go

"are you sure, you know there is no one rushing you to go back, you can take more time off, everyone will understand" Tobi tells me 

"no, I think I need this, I need to get this over with" I tell him and Tobi starts the car, I feel the lump in my throat grow bigger and bigger as we get closer to school, I feel very scared and anxious, I just want to cry and scream, but I need to hold it together, I need to get this over with. 

but I just know, everything would be a lot easier if Simon was here with me. I know I could do everything if he was at my side, but he is not, and I need to learn how to manage without him, I could once, but right now, I just cant see a life without him.