Love Overcast // (ManxMan)

=Chapter 26=

A/N: Surprise! It's Brason instead lol!

[Leonardo]

If he weren't over 18 I would adopt him in 2 seconds...

"Should those sounds you are making be encouraging?" Brason asks with an eyebrow raised, knife and fork in hand, cutting up the omelet that he made for the two of us for breakfast.

"Hell yes." I shovel another spoonful into my mouth, "42 years of my life and I can still barely make a meal that tastes half as good as this." Brason chuckles with his glasses sliding down his nose. He's got one of those Harry Potter glasses with circular frames, he only wears them at home since his eyesight is not too bad.

"Growing up without parents tend to do that to people."

"I'd be your parent in a heartbeat, though, I'd be a pretty shitty one." I shrug, continuing my quest to finish the food.

"Glad to hear I am appreciated." He smiles warmly and takes a sip of his passion fruit juice. That stuff is nasty, it's acidic and sour enough to neutralize drain cleaner. "Is there anything we need to do today?"

I hum in agreement while chewing my food, no need to spit all over my table. "We are going to work on the gallery pieces till lunch, especially that 5 by 2, we need that done soon because it's in oil." He nods quickly before giving me a thumbs-up from behind his glass of seedy, sour goodness.

"Are you sure you want me to contribute in that one? It seems very special and I don't want to act like I'm a part of anything." I'm tempted to just flick my fork and poke his tongue out because of that. I settled for a raise of an eyebrow and give him an incredulous look. "Right... no pity party. Got it."

"We are going to the book store in town and meet up with Ryland to talk about catering or whatever. Most likely not going to be a very productive conversation though." I chuckle, knowing how compatible I am with Ryland and how much I like going on tangents.

I continue to munch on the delicious food. Silence is very dangerous sometimes, and given the circumstances with a specific Canadian grizzly bear, I begin to dwell in my thoughts a little too much. It depresses me that I am falling for another man when I've barely gotten out of a divorce.

Maybe I am just that desensitized to breaking up with someone, or maybe I'm just too used to the trauma that I'm bouncing back far too quickly. In any case, I do applaud myself for pulling back just in time to get myself to reflect on these things.

The 'conflict' - if you can even call it that - between Sebastien and I is less about the words being exchanged and more the fact that I realize I am trying to wedge my way into situations that aren't my business. I don't have the right to ask Sebastien about why he is stressed when I could just offer support, and that's exactly my original intention. However, execution was very much not the same story, he made me realize that I'm getting in the way.

Pulling back is harder than I had anticipated, but putting more time into my passion has helped and organizing the gallery show will occupy me until I decide that I am ready for the responsibility of not only speaking to Sebastien but continuing or extending what we have between the two of us.

Being an adult sucks ass sometimes, there's always that underlying pain in my heart when I have to speak to other people as if nothing's happened. Normally I have Nicola to bitch and whine to, but she's MIA for the longest time and I have to bottle it all up and vent through the only way I know how.

Seeing Ryland and Skylar is not going to be an easy feat, but I'm still willing to do it because there is some sort of attachment to them, it's not obligatory, but I do feel the need to take care of them, especially Skylar. That boy is an angel and it does break my heart seeing him in distress over an unfathomable emotion such as love. That's a very ironic statement considering I am doing the exact same thing.