Caffeine withdrawal

City encounters

"You really didn't have to bring me along you know." Yoongi mumbles to Joan, grip getting tighter on the handle bar. They were currently on the subway heading towards Manhattan. "Yea but it's more fun walking around the city with two guys. Also Jae gets annoying when it's just him with me. If anything you're saving my sanity." Joan responds and Jae laughs. "Nobody can handle my swag man, I have too much." The oldest says. "Not as much as me." Yoongi says and the older pats his head. "Keep telling yourself that frosty." Yoongi grumbles angrily but doesn't say anything else.

A voice calls letting them know they are arriving at their stop and Jae stands from his seat. "We should go to one of the islands one day too." Joan nods but Yoongi finds himself lost in (the sauce) his own thoughts. "Cmon frosty were heading out." Jae says and Yoongi nods walking somewhat behind the other two. It's one of those days where he regrets his actions and he can't get away from his scrutinizing thoughts. "Alright where to first?" Joan asks and Jae is quick to answer. "There's that new music equipment store that just opened up! I wanna see what they've got." He tells them before dragging them to the store.

As they enter Yoongi becomes amazed. "Oh my god. They have everything in here." He says and Jae nods. Joan and Jae watch as Yoongi moves through the store like a kid in the candy store. "He's gonna be broke after this." Jae says walking over the younger. "He's gonna be taking so many extra shoots." Joan responds. "ITS SO CHEAP TOO! THIS PLACE IS AMAZING!" They hear Yoongi yell. The boy is happily running through the store looking at all the nice equipment he could buy until he bumps into another person. "Sorry sir!" He says getting a brief view of the person. He continues to look around until it finally clicks in his brain who that person was. He stops running and begins to walk back to his friends. When they see the glum look on his face he scrambles to find an excuse. "Can't buy everything I want all at once." He mumbles and the two laugh. "Still saving up for that thing I guess?" Joan asks and Yoongi nods. "Well I was only going to window shop today so if we're done here then let's go." Yoongi nods not fully paying attention to the two. Right now he only has one thing on his mind.

What was Namjoon doing here in America.

Before Yoongi knows it he's become separated from the two. It'd be ok if it weren't for the fact he doesn't know where they're going nor does he know his way around Manhattan. "Fuck." He mumbles beginning to run around a look for them. Of course this would happen to him right now, Yoongi thinks. He knows you need to move fast here but they can't have gotten that far, there's no way. As he searches he sees another familiar face. "No no no no." He says. Too much is happening, Yoongi can't handle it. He just wants to find Jae and Joan and have a relaxing day. He can't deal with the people of his past right now it's too much. There's too many people around him. Everything is closing in on him and he can't breath. He didn't realize it but he's been staring in the same direction. The only reason why he notices is because they look back at him. Seokjin looks back at Yoongi. Their stairs meet before Yoongi runs away.

The idea of finding Jae and Joan leaves his mind as he runs and runs. He isn't sure where he's heading he just keeps running. He's breathing too fast as he keeps moving as far away as he can from Seokjin. The angry face the older had on the day he left makes Yoongi move even faster. His legs are killing him but he can't stop running. Eventually his legs give out on him and he takes in his surroundings. He's in some alleyway. Yoongi leans against the wall of the building tears streaming down his face. His lungs are burning as he continues to breath heavily. He hugs his knees to his chest as he rocks himself back and forth. He can hear anything but white noise and his vision is blurry from his tears.

In the heat of the moment one person flashes through his head. He remembers the number by heart. Just as he goes to dial it, his phone starts ringing. Jae's contact photo shows on his screen and Yoongi cries even more. "H-hello" he can't even bring himself to speak in English at this moment. All he can do is cry and try to breath. "Yoongi? Where are you? Is everything ok?" Jae asks over the phone. "I'm not.. I can't.." Yoongi can't even speak at this point. "Hey hey it's ok. Take deep breaths Yoongi, deep breaths. In through the nose out through the mouth. Do you think you could do that for me Yoongi?" Yoongi tries his best to do just that but it proves to be more difficult than he thought. "Can you focus on my voice Yoongi. Can you do that?" "Maybe.."

"Good good. I'll tell you what the area around us looks like, maybe we're close by." Jae starts telling Yoongi names of shops and streets until Yoongi finally recognizes one. "Pizza place, alley way across." He says. Soon enough Jae and Joan are in front of him and Yoongi cries more. Jae hugs him and the younger grabs hold of his shirt, grip so hard his knuckles turn white. "Hyung." Yoongi says and then older shushes him. "It's ok we got you Yoongs." He tells the younger.

Everything blends together as Jae picks him up and he and Joan decide they should bring Yoongi to the eldest's place. Yoongi doesn't quite remember the train ride back to Queens or the walk back to Jae's. Nothing is clear until Yoongi wakes up from the nap he doesn't remember falling asleep for. Memories of the last time that happened flow through his head and Yoongi starts awake. "No no no no." He says not thinking straight due tot the panic. "Yoongi! Yoongi it's me, Joan! Everything is ok now." The calming tone of the younger's voice brings Yoongi down a bit from his panic. "I'm in New York." Yoongi mumbles and Joan nods. "Yes you are. Would you like to talk about what happened?" Yoongi shakes his head as he realizes this is Jae's place not his own. "Where's Jae?" He asks. "Picking up some KFC." Yoongi nods and Joan moves to sit on the couch next to Yoongi. "Hug?" She asks arms open. Yoongi leans into the hug, head resting on her shoulder. "Thanks."

"This just in, Chicken Little caught leaving KFC with bag full of fried chicken." They hear when the door is opened. "For the last time you're a McChicken." Yoongi says as the older comes into his line of sight. "Why you gotta be like that frosty?" Yoongi doesn't respond he just sniffles. A hand lands on his head and ruffles his hair. Yoongi feels an odd sense of comfort from it. Nobody says anything as they start to eat and Yoongi takes pleasure in that. He'll talk about it all when he's ready.