Caffeine withdrawal

Super glue

He didn't mean to, he really didn't. But as Yoongi looks at his hands and the mess around him, he thinks Taehyung may think otherwise. He's even more worried Holly will get into the kitchen and hurt himself. Yoongi grows even more disappointed with himself as he assess the situation. "You can't even get a glass from the shelf without fucking up." Yoongi says, hissing as another piece of glass cuts into his skin while he's trying to clean it up. He'd go slower but he wants Taehyung to not freak out the moment he enters the door. The idea of his lover walking into the apartment and instantly seeing him crouched on the floor surrounded by glass and droplets of blood, Yoongi knows he's gonna think he had a break down. He moves faster, trying to get this done and over with already.

As he gets closer to finishing one piece of glass cuts particularly deep and Yoongi can't hold back the whimper of pain it causes. It then clicks in his head just how much blood he's lost and how many times the glass has pierced his hands. "There's no way I'm going to be able to hide this." Yoongi says, moving to throw out the glass he's picked up. They're covered in blood and it makes Yoongi gag. At the same time he can't deny the panic it's triggering inside of him. Yoongi isn't even sure how he's still keeping it all together currently. "Oh god the company is going to have my head on a silver platter when they see these. Right before the comeback too, good job Yoongi." He complains to himself as he goes back to picking up glass.

When he finishes with cleaning up the glass, he moves to cleaning up the blood on the floor. Running paper towels under the faucet, the water causes the cuts on his hands to sting. The entire action of cleaning up the blood hurts immensely and Yoongi finds himself willing away tears of pain. Finally when he finishes Yoongi notices how some have already stopped bleeding. Yoongi moves to the bathroom where the first aid kit is. Grabbing a cotton ball and some alcohol, Yoongi goes to disinfect the cuts, which is horribly painful. As he bandages them up Yoongi realizes the overwhelming feeling of relief running through him. Yoongi knows what it's from but he pushes the thought of it away, trying his best to not think of it like that. When he finishes Yoongi moves to the couch where he was earlier before all of that had happened.

Carefully he works on his laptop even though hitting a key the wrong way makes him hit certain cuts dead on. Slowly he finds himself growing tired and eventually falls asleep mid work.
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"Oh baby.." Yoongi hears as he starts to wake up. The feeling of relief has been replaced with something more numb. He winces as a hand grabs his own a bit too harshly. "I'm sorry love." Is whispered softly and Yoongi instantly recognizes the voice as Taehyung's. Fluttering his eyes open, Yoongi finds himself in a more slumped version of the position he had been in before waking up and Taehyung staring at him worriedly. "What happened to your hands baby?" Taehyung asks. "Had accidentally dropped a glass and had the dumb idea to clean it up by hand." He answers quietly. Taehyung nods before looking at the bandages again. "Let's put on some new ones yeah?" It's more of a statement than a question and Taehyung moves the laptop off Yoongi and helps him up from the couch. Slowly he guides Yoongi to the bathroom before taking out the first aid kit.

"I'm sorry." Yoongi says as Taehyung begins to take off the bandages. "I'm such a mess, I'm probably stressing you out so much with how I am." He continues only for Taehyung to shake his head. "I was thinking about everything the other night. All those years back when I had gotten out of my coma, you took care of me and dealt with every melt down I had. I've never felt so loved and cared for in my life and I've always wanted to repay you for that. While I wish this weren't happening, I feel like I'm finally doing that. So don't feel like a burden ok? You are in no way doing anything wrong alright." The tiny speech made Yoongi wonder if Taehyung went through what he had gone through when the younger had gone through his coma years ago.

"Why are you like this? You're so loving I don't understand it." Yoongi confesses and Taehyung smiles at him. "I've never met someone so amazing, talented, kind, passionate, devoted and caring as you Yoongi. I don't know how but I just.. can't be angry with you. I love you too much too." His answer makes Yoongi feel fuzzy but at the same time he's opened up a can of worms and he knows he's going to start letting out all his questions. "Why don't you hate me like Namjoon, Seokjin and Hoseok though. I don't get it, I just left." It's said in a desperate tone and Yoongi wants to be swallowed by the earth in the moment.

"They don't hate you baby.... They think that you hurt me, even though I said I was fine. I think they're more mad at me for taking you back so quickly." Yoongi frowns at the thought of them being mad at him. "they'll come around soon baby, don't worry." Taehyung assures. "What about Jungkook?"  Yoongi asks. "That meme has been begging me to tell you that he deserves lamb kababs since you're back." Yoongi laughs for the first time in what feels like ages. "And here I thought he would be the most mad at me." Yoongi confesses. "What makes you say that?" Taehyung asks. "Well I must've upset Jimin too when I left and you and me both know how protective of a boyfriend Jungkook is."

"Actually it's fiancé now."  The sentence confuses Yoongi because he doesn't remember Jimin wearing an engagement ring when he last saw him. "I'm guessing Jimin didn't tell you he proposed?" Yoongi opens his mouth to say something but finds he's too surprised to say anything. "You're not alone." Taehyung says. While Yoongi knows he means that they all thought the same thing, for some reason Yoongi feels like it has so much more meaning behind it.

Throughout all the talking they had done, Yoongi didn't even notice that Taehyung had cleaned the cuts and rebandaged them all. "You know while you were gone Namjoon had something that I try to remember as much as I can. He said 'where there is hope, there are trials.' I try to remind myself of them when life gets hard, and it reminds me to find the hope in the situation." Yoongi nods smiling at Taehyung. "Thank you."

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Tomorrow is the end of my first quarter in the school year and I'm gonna scream if my desperate attempt to raise my grades doesn't help me in any way. Also I would like to thank all of you wishing me to feel better, it's actually helped me to feel better :)
-kyl