Caffeine withdrawal

Maybe I have a chance

Yoongi is setting up his equipment in his room when someone knocks on his door. "Come in!" He calls and Jae walks in. "For the last time you don't have to check in on me all the time Jae." Yoongi says but the older doesn't listen. "I can't help it." He says moving further into the room. "Anyways I brought pizza. You can't say no to pizza frosty." It's definitely a tempting idea to Yoongi but he won't fall that easily. "That'd be great if I were hungry." Jae nods but goes to sit in the back of the studio. "What the name of that bear?" Jae asks and finally Yoongi smiles. "Kumamon." He answers. "Did you bring him from Korea or did you buy one online recently?" Jae asks as Yoongi walks over to the stuffed bear picking it up. "I've had it since I was a baby. I can't remember ever not having it in my life." Yoongi looks at the doll like it's the love of his life. "I actually almost gave it away to Jimin once when I first met him. Of course I was only about three and he was barely one but I mean that's what you do when you're kids." Yoongi laughs as he reminisces of when days were simpler.

"Who's Jimin?" Jae asks causing Yoongi to look up at the elder like a deer in headlights. "He's like my brother I guess." Yoongi mumbles. "Yoongi why did you leave Korea in the first place?" Jae asks bluntly. It's quiet as Yoongi looks at the doll tears forming in his eyes. Did Jae have to ask this while he's at work? He has to be professional here and he's already cried once, he doesn't need to again. "Do we have to talk about this here?" He asks, voice shaking. "I'm sorry I'm just tired of being left in the dark Yoongi. It's kinda hard to make you feel better if I don't know the situation." Jae says.

"Well it's not like I asked you to help me feel better about it anyways! So why don't you step the fuck back and mind your own business." Yoongi angrily responds. "It's like no matter where I go I can't get away from this bullshit! Can't I fucking breath for once?" He starts hugging the bear to his chest, it's the only thing keeping him from breaking down. "Yoongi I'm sorry I didn't-" Yoongi shakes his head. "It's not your fault I've got a lot to me."

Yoongi moves to sit next to Jae and looks up at him. "To answer your question, I left because of one of those near death experiences. I put a lot of people I cared about in danger a long with myself. At the time I felt like it was only a matter of time before I cause them to suffer like that again, so I left. I dropped everything and left. They'd be safe and I'd get a fresh start at life. Now I've realized I fucked up but I can't just come back and say 'hey guys I'm back.' Those people the other day that came in and I spoke to were some of the people I was trying to keep safe. They told me I need to come back home but it's just not that simple!" Yoongi cries into Jae's shoulder as the other rubs his back. "It'll be better if you go back then never coming back. If they wanted you to come back then they must still have room for you in their hearts. Just if you end up staying there permanently make sure you send a post card or two." Jae says.

"Maybe you're right. Maybe I'll go back, but I'll need help with something first."
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"Jesus Christ frosty these lyrics are... wow." Jae says when Yoongi shows him them. "Back in Korea I was working on a mixtape. When I came here I stopped its production but I brought everything with me. My only problem is I don't have any equipment now. I want to finish it and bring it back to Korea." Jae looks up at Yoongi his face plastered with determination. "We can use my friend Brian's studio, he owes me a favor or two."  At the last part Yoongi gives the older a questioning look but nods nonetheless. "So agust d huh? Why's it spelt like that?" Jar asks and Yoongi smiles fondly. "Back in Korea my stage name in my old group was suga, so the a g u s is Suga backwards. As for the t and d in my last few years of high school I was part of this underground group called D town, since we were in daegu." Jae nods and looks back at the lyrics. "You could say it's like a tribute to the people that got me here. The people who were a part of my life in D town and the people who were a part of my life when I was Suga. A week after I left Korea I broke down for a few days. I realized what leaving probably meant to all of them, it probably seemed like I took what they gave me for granted. So I'm making my name a way to remember them each time I perform, to say thank you to all of them."

"You can be a huge softy sometimes, it's adorable." Jae says and Yoongi laugh. "You're weird Jae." The younger says shaking his head. He doesn't see the blush that's forming on Jae's face realizing he said the last part out loud. "L-Let's just start working on the songs.." the older says standing up and turning away from the other. He does it fast enough that Yoongi doesn't even notice the blush of Jae's face. The again Yoongi has always been oblivious when it comes to Jae and his feelings for the younger. But the older would keep silent, knowing how he had no chance. It's for the better he tries to assure himself as the leave the apartment to head to the studio.

'Still hurts like a bitch though.' Jar can't help but think.
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Hi guys! So chapters may come out slower for the next few weeks. I injured my finger and it's really awkward to type and use my phone (which is where I write all my chapters, professional I know.) in general. I still have one more chapter prewritten so that may come out on abnormal time but the rest maybe a bit crazy. Hopefully I can stay somewhat on track so that you guys can keep reading.

Also I have a question. I've been debating on writing a story with Jungkook as the main character and I have the first few chapters of the story prewritten. I was wondering if that would be something you would read though. I don't really write about Jungkook too much in these books so that's why I'm a tad bit curious. Please please please leave some responses, I really want to know. Thank you so much.

-kyl