Silver's Effect

Ryoma

slowly i stretched my mouth open in a large yawn as i slowed my walk to a stop.

with bored eyes i looked over to Koyuki's house, expecting to see her stepping out of her door like usual only to pause in slight confusion when i didn't see her.

i looked back towards the road to see if she was farther ahead but saw nothing.

maybe she was running late?

i waited for a few minutes before pulling my phone out to check the time.

i still had a while before class started, but i wasn't really early.

i looked back towards the road before looking up at her house again.

a shadow passed by the door and i shrugged before walking up to the gate and letting myself into her yard. 

i knocked softly three times on the door and waited for her to open up as slight irritation seemed to make me impatient.

the door opened and a woman i had never seen before looked out at me in confusion.

"is koyuki running late today?" i asked as i looked at her.

she looked kind of like koyuki, she must be her mom.

she furrowed her brows before shaking her head, seemingly to clear her confusion as she said "oh you mean koyumi, no she left earlier this morning."

i blinked before my own brows furrowed in confusion.

"koyumi?" i found myself asking before shrugging, must be some weird nickname her mom calls her.

"ok thank you ma'am." i said as i gave her a slight bow and turned to go to school.

whats up with her leaving without me?

i paused at the train crossing as a train passed. 

it was already halfway by when i stopped so i didn't have to wait long before i crossed and finished the walk to school.

the building seemed to be just a little dimmer than usual as i stepped onto campus but i ignored it in favor of looking for koyumi.

i checked the classroom first, a few students were milling about or studying but koyumi wasn't seated at her desk yet.

i frowned and put my bag at my desk before turning and making my way to the music room. 

i figured i was going to go to morning practice next if i couldn't find her here, but it didn't hurt to look as i walked.

the sound of music could be heard from the room as i neared and i could hear koyuki's voice.

she seemed to be just starting to sing an english song, i paused outside of the door and listened as her sweet voice filled the air.

  "Emotions I feel they turn to none 

I broke, I broke, them one by one 

The smile that I had through all these years 

It bears, it bears, these hateful tears 

 The scars that I have 

I gulped 

although 

They hurt, they hurt, 

but you won't know 

And if it is true you should admit 

You didn't notice it 

 Words you say that we can't see 

They hit and they are killing me 

 You don't know how I feel inside 

You don't know just how much I tried 

Light that burned it's out by now

 I try to get it back somehow 

The "I" it slowly turned the "me" into what is "lies" 

 In case you won't come but run and flee

 You know, you know, it's fine with me 

But if you are here and chose to be real 

All my wounds, all my wounds, will not heal 

 It's always the same with me 

So deep inside my heart you'll be 

You're smiling and that's all I see

 You know it's unforgivably 

That it hurts is hard to say 

'Cause you won't hear it anyway 

The "I" it turns to "clown" on my behalf 

You'll laugh and laugh 

 Right now I could just disappear 

But it's a lie, it is a lie 

 Words you say that we can't see 

They hit and they are killing me 

You know it's unforgivably

Also is this type of me

 But if you think that this is fine 

Then please come kill me don't decline 

'Cause "I" it slowly turned the "me" into what is "lies" 

Only "lies" 

only "lies

only "lies" "

my eyes widened as i listened to her sing. 

what is she trying to say?

slowly i turned away from the door, she seems to want to be alone right now.

maybe i shouldn't say anything about her leaving me this morning.

she seems to be having a tough time right now.