Silver's Effect

Koyuki

my smile faded as my blush intensified.

i snuck a glance from the corner of my eye at Ryoma, who was quietly jogging beside me.

i'm pretty sure my face was glowing from the heat in my cheeks as i noticed the small smile still on his face.

quickly i averted my gaze as my heart rate picked up more than it already was.

what am i going to do?

this is awful!

i finally made a friend and now i have a crush on him?

if he finds out it will be so awkward!

worse case scenario is he decides it's best not to have anything to do with me and i lose him.

a frown settled across my face as i looked up at him again.

would he leave me?

my eyes started to become a bit blurry as the thought of being alone again flooded my mind.

or my feelings would be nothing but a burden.

i shook my head to physically throw the thought away as determination filled me.

i will just have to make sure he doesn't find out!

then everything will be okay and we can be friends forever!

okay that sounded cheesy even in my head.

i didn't realize i had started to frown again until Ryoma lightly tapped his knuckles onto the side of my head to get my attention.

blinking in surprise i looked up at him again.

his own frown seemed to match mine as he asked "want to go play tennis at my house?"

i felt a light blush across my face and slowly shook my head.

he furrowed his brows in confusion but nodded and we turned around to come back the way we came.

my stomach twisted uncomfterably and i could feel my heart pounding as he cast a side glance at me, still a little confused.

i cant be around him right now.

i have to compose myself.

i stared at my feet and kept my mouth firmly closed as we jogged the rest of the way to my house.

when we got to my door ryoma gave me a hard look.

i blinked as he started deep into my eyes, as if he was searching for something.

the longer he stared the faster my heart pounded before i finally half yelled in a panic "ill, see you at school!" 

i was in the house and slamming the door before he could even open his mouth in surprise.

when the large piece of wood finally seperated us i felt my knees lose all strength in them and i fell to the floor.

slowly my face started to get hot until i felt like i could hold a marsh mellow in front of my nose and roast it.

i heard a heavy sigh on the other side of the door before ryoma's foot steps retreated.

slowly i placed a hand on my burning cheek and sighed.

how the hell am i supposed to hide this from him?

how did i get such a strong crush so suddenly?

oh man, what am i going to do?

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sorry guys, i know its short and more of a filler :( 

i am currently stealing our neighbor's wifi to write and i feel kinda guilty for it....

but i figured if anything, you guys are worth the theft ;) 

i more or less just want you all to know...

I'M NOT DEAD!!!

and i will keep writing as soon as i can!

sadly though i have no idea when we will be getting internet for ourselves...

so the only time i will get to do anything is at mcdonalds or when i can steal our neighbor's :)

anyway, i hope you all like the story so far and have a wonderful night! 

it is currently 1:07 am here so im going to bed lol good night all!