Hold Her Tight (Sequel To 'Let Her Go') [ON HOLD]

Chapter 2

•9:30 Am•

I lay in bed wide away staring at the ceiling.. I miss mark..

I miss him more than anything..

I cried myself to sleep last night, I cried till my tears dried out.. I was so disappointed..

Is he ever coming back? What if he found someone better?

What if he- No!

I get off the bed before my thoughts engulf my brain and make me want to curl up in a ball and cry my heart out.

I freshen up and cook myself a light breakfast, eating it while I watch TV.

The bell rings a couple times and I groan, who now? I put my plate down and stand up, making my way to the door.

I swing it open to see a rather familiar face standing there with a huge grin..

I'm.. I'm dreaming.. Right?

"J-jimin..?" I stand there in pure shock..
He's dead.. I saw him die in front of me with my own eyes! How is he standing here?!

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I jump up sweating, what on earth was that?

I glance at the clock, 4 am.. I was dreaming.. Of.. Jimin?

I now have no doubt that my nightmares have returned. Right after Jimin passed away I had nightmares on a daily basis, I would wake up screaming and mark would hold me close till I fell asleep in his arms..

And now he isn't there to stop them..

My heart clenches, mark..

[Am I the only one crying rn?]

I lay back down and hug one of the many pillows lying scattered on the huge bed and turn to face the windows..

Its pitch dark outside... But a lot of the city is still so alive, light blinking.. Cars passing by..

I love the view we picked out, mark knew how much I loved floor to ceiling windows and made sure the next apartment we moved into had them.

I remember how excited I got when he first bought me to get a look at this beautiful house, I wouldn't stop kissing him and telling him how much I loved it..

I stare at the window for what seems like forever before I fall asleep, a few tears making their way down the sides of my face..

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I wake up a few hours later and take a nice warm shower, winters around the corner and its starting to get pretty chilly in the mornings.

Although the sun shines bright in the sky, the wind is chilly and.. Exciting in a way.
I love winter, its my favourite time of the year.. Its just so calming and it eases he stress on my shoulders, it always manages to put a huge smile on my face.

I surf through channels and end up watching some random drama going on.

Ah damn.. Why are all these drama actors so fucking hot?

I seriously think they were all Greek gods in their past lives.. Seriously! How can one mere human being look so.. Out of this world?

Hours pass by as I idol my time, listening to music and cleaning up the house a little. There isn't much to clean up since no ones ever here, all I do is sleep here and die of boredom on the weekends.

But.. Who am I to complain? I hate socializing anyway.

I get a call from my boss and answer ur quickly.

"Good morning.. Yes?" I greet into the phone, his deep voice on the other end sounds calm as he speaks.

"Since there isn't a single day you have skipped work in the past nearly two years.. I'm giving you a paid month off. Please rest at home and do something fun, have a great weekend and a great holiday!" I laughs and hangs up.

I stand in the middle of the living room, completely frozen.

What am I supposed to do for a whole month? Alone??

Oh god.. I'm going to die alone, and when someone comes to find me they'll probably find my body rotting on the couch.

That sounds horrible.. And really disgusting now that I think if it.

Ew? What's wrong with me?

I shake my head and laugh a little, I'm suddenly in a good mood.. Shopping sounds fun? Its pretty cool outside, I should probably go winter shopping.

Yeah.. That sounds good. I smile to myself and walk to my room, plopping on the bed and checking my phone. I text sue and tell her about a few things before getting into the shower.

I come out and walk to the closet, pulling out a decent outfit.

I tie the plaid shirt around my waist and slip into my shoes, tying my hair up in a bun.

I grab my keys and make my way out of the apartment, walking down the stairs to my car. I get in and turn on the radio, smiling and singing along to the music.

"Slowly sinking wasting~ crumbling like pastries..they seem.. The worst things in life come free to us~ cause' we're all under the upper hand.. Goin mad for a couple grams.. And we don't wanna go outside~ tonight.. And in the pipe we fly to the motherland.. Or sell love to another man.. Its to cold outside~ tonight.. For angels to fly~"

I soon pull up at the mall and get out, texting sue on my way in. I walk from shop to shop, looking at things..picking out a few stuff.

After an hour or so of shopping around and drinking a whole large cup of coffee from one of my favourite cafés I hear my stomach grumble.

I sigh and get onto the escalator, going up to the food court. The malls not too crowded for a Saturday afternoon, which is good.

I order pasta from my regular go to Italian restaurant and sit down, I get a call from an unknown number and answer it blindly.

"Hey.." I hear a familiar voice..