the art of faking a smile. (under-construction)

3. True Friends

AKIO POV

"Cassie!" I call out to her. Cassie turns around, takes out her earphones and smiles, waving back. Honestly Cassie is really pretty, naturally. She has big chocolate-brown eyes and a cute smile. She has a dimple on one side and a faint one on the other and she's also a bit curvy, although, she believes she's just straight up fat. She's weird, nice and knows her boundaries. And because she's so chill, you can trust her with your secrets without worrying about her judging you, she would just keep quiet and the secret would be protected in her arms. She's a great person, she just doesn't know it.

"Ugh I fucking hate Mrs Simons, do you even know how much I suffered last period? I'm already tired inside and out and her blabbering on about the topic exhausted me a million times more. I swear she doesn't even know what she's talking about either." Cassie complains as we're walking together.

"Well at least you don't have humanities as your last period." I chuckle.

"What are talking about? I love humanities, if you can't see the true beauty of hums, I'm unfriending you." Cassie says pulling a disgusted face at me.

"We're in the middle of an Economics unit."

"...oh, but that still isn't as bad as maths!" Cassie says, not admitting her defeat.

"Whatever." I roll my eyes and shake my head.

Once we arrive at my house, we gossip and joke about many things, from bitches and assholes in the school to the latest chapters of manga.

After some time, we decide to study, but end up procrastinating instead. I'm drawing some fan art whilst Cassie's looking really weird and dark memes on Reddit, music playing in the background and at times we would sing along with the chorus. Although we stopped gossiping and getting into a lot of fits of laughter, the silence was pleasant, I enjoy moments like these, and I'm pretty sure Cassie does too.

"Hey, Akio."

"What?" I answer, still focused on drawing my klance fanart.

"Should we try play wingman/woman for Dylan?"

"I don't know, it seems like a good idea because Dylan always seems so frustrated when Hideki doesn't notice his feelings. But I don't know, I don't think we should butt into their friendship." I reply.

"True... maybe they should just figure it out themselves and let's see how long it'll take." Cassie grins, I nod in agreement, I honestly couldn't wait until they sorted themselves out. After that short conversation, we go back to what we were doing before, but Cassie is actually studying this time. Freaking smartass.

I think back to my thoughts during the few minutes of economics, and I'm debating whether or not I should tell Cassie, I do anyway since she is the friend I talk to whenever I feel stuffed in the head...

"Cassie?"

"Yeah?" Cassie completes whatever she's writing in her book before turning to me.

"Do you think I'll ever get a boyfriend? I was thinking about that last period and honestly I'm just so desperate and lonely right now but I feel like everyone in the school dislikes me because I'm weak and an ugly ass nerd who looks gay and acts gay and-"

"Yo, dude! Calm down. You are perfectly fine, I promise you." Cassie cuts me off before I ramble on and on, she's going to pull me into a hug but I push her away.

"No I'm not fine! I feel so effed up right now and frustrated that I can't fit in at school and I have to deal with all these fake assholes and shit-talkers. I hate the fact that no one will appreciate me for everything I've done for them. I especially hate the fact that my dad will never notice me no matter how hard I try to live up to his standards because in the end it just doesn't work out and I'm just so scared that he'll dump me." Tears are welling up in my eyes, my breathing quickeing and I can feel myself shivering, it is obvious to me what is going on after putting up with so many. But why does it have to happen now of all times, I hate myself for being so weak.