the art of faking a smile. (under-construction)

15. Jealousy

DYLAN POV

Just one more sentence and I'm done with this essay. I type away on the keyboard, intensely focusing on getting this essay done so I can have a break and hang out with Hideki.

One more word...

And I'm done, finally. I click the save button and slam my laptop closed before packing my books away. I was planning on studying more but I need my daily dose of Hideki's reactions when I flirt with him. I could even surprise him at Pink Gorilla.

I smile to myself, thinking about how Hideki would react. Nowadays I've realised that Hideki has become more somewhat attached to me. I keep on getting this feeling that he's getting interested or something... and that I might have a chance with him from the way he acts towards me.

I really hope he isn't misleading me though because right now even if I don't want to, I'm getting my hopes high and thinking that maybe, just maybe, he might like me too.

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Reaching my destination I catch sight of my reflection on the cafe window. My parted hair is messy and greasy and my face looks dead. I stretch my limbs and fix my hair a bit before entering the cafe.

I queue in line to order a drink when I spot a light brown haired boy sitting in the corner. I light up and was going to approach him until I see a sandy haired boy sitting opposite him. They seem to be having fun. I step out of the line and walk a little closer to the small table to see that Hideki is sitting with none other than Justin Reynolds. A dark feeling starts bubbling inside me and I can't help but feel jealousy, the fact that Hideki is having fun with someone other than me makes me feel so irritated and obsessive. Since when the fuck did they get so close? I already know that Hideki wanted to befriend Justin, thinking he's interesting, I was glad that once we reached year 12, he forgot about it and focused on his studies. But why the fuck now?

Forget about getting coffee, right now all I'm solely focusing on is interrupting Hideki and Justin's conversation.

I sneakily walk my way towards their table, luckily Hideki is too indulged in his conversation with Justin that he doesn't even realise me, same as Justin. As I get closer, the jealousy inside me begins to boil and I couldn't wait to prove Justin that I'm the one who's having the chance with Hideki. I grab a lone chair in the very corner of the cafe, place it beside my friend and possessively wrap an arm around his shoulders.

"Hey Hideki." I smirk at him, sneaking my other hand on his thigh and purposely pretend Justin isn't there. Hideki looks surprised and blushes furiously at my actions, I smile even more at that.

"Oh hey, I thought you were studying?"

"I did, but I only finished my essay because I wanted to be with you." I murmur in his ear, Hideki only nods and looks down, probably to cover his now beet red face. Justin coughs awkwardly, signalling that he's here. Hideki pushes me away slightly and chuckles.

"Oh, hey there." I greet Justin, trying to put up the best smile I can pull even though I just want him to fuck off right now.

"Hey, um, maybe I should leave now.." Oh please do so I can have some time alone with Hideki. Although, Justin does seem a bit reluctant to leave.

"What? No way! We were literally having fun a moment ago." Hideki complains before giving me an accusing look.

"Yeah but your friend here clearly doesn't want me here and I don't want to be involved in anymore problems. Anyway I gotta study and you have my contact info too." He states bluntly, completely exposing me. Fucking asshole.

Hideki frowns before letting it go. "Alright, but I'm calling you once I get home and you better answer, I still have a lot to talk about."

Justin nods before leaving the cafe. I move to the seat Justin was sitting in and smile in content, Hideki glares daggers at me. It's probably the most deadliest glares he's shot at me ever.

"What?" I ask innocently.

"Don't act dumb Dylan! He's a new friend I made so you didn't have to act so overprotective. It's not like we're dating anyway."

I feel a slight pang in my chest and my hopes that he might reciprocate my feelings drops too. Maybe he doesn't like me that way and is just already used to my flirting attempts, but I'm still not giving up. I've liked him for so many years, it's too late to give up.

"Honestly, why the hell would you want to befriend him though. This is Justin we're talking about! He's the self-made loner who doesn't want to interact with others and instead seems like a total dickhead." I blurt out.

"Well you're wrong! He's actually really nice and relatable, you just don't understand."

"Then make me understand!"

"Well either way you won't seeing that you're already treating him like shit even though he hasn't done anything to you! Right now you're acting like a jealous and possessive boyfriend even though you're not even my boyfriend, we're both not gay either! You're never usually like this whenever I'm with others." Hideki rambles.

"That's because when I saw you with Justin, you looked so happy and I felt like your friendship with him is just like ours and it made me so... jealous." I admit. Hideki finishes off his quiche and downs his coffee in one go.

"Ugh, I seriously don't get you. So what if I have that same kind of friendship with others, it doesn't change the fact that you're my best friend and that I trust you with all my heart. But for now, you know what? Just don't talk to me right now, you're being an ass and I don't even know why. I want to be alone now because of this shitty ass day." With that, Hideki stands up abruptly with his bag and leaves without a word.

I tug at my hair and sigh in frustration, it is true that I was being an ass, but I couldn't help it.

"It's because I've been in love with you for god knows how long, and I don't want you to be taken away from me."

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Eyyyyy I'm going on holiday in a couple days so I won't be able to update for awhile. But I'll be back in a few weeks or so. Hope y'all liked this angsty chapter.