Sexual Frustrations

15. Hostility

When the planned weekend rolled around I felt the biggest range of mixed emotions. I tossed between going and not going probably a thousand times before Lip and Maddy dragged me out the door. I took some deep breaths and managed to push aside my stupid emotions and present myself as carefree as possible when we eventually met up with the others.

Everyone was waiting by their cars exactly like last time only this time round we all only had overnight bags. Lip and Maddy gave me a big pep talk on the way over and I was ready to fake it until I make it.

"Morning ladies." Tyler announced and started discussing the plans but I was too distracted. Carl looked fucking good. He looked bright and petty fucking hot to be honest. He wore a great big smirk as we made eye contact and I was almost certain I was blushing.

"Let's get going!" Tyler concluded his plan that I listened to none of. Maddy and I jumped into the car with him, while Marty, Emma, and Carl jumped into the other car. I hadn't even spared Emma a glance and that's the way I planned to spend the weekend. Completely ignoring her. Which I could totally do for two nights.

We made general pointless chatter during the drive over and I tried my hardest to stay focused on what ever conversation was happening but I couldn't help my mind from drifting to Carl. I couldn't even explain how good it was to see him lively and like his usual self. Smug and confident rather than exhibiting the effects of his drug use. Although this Carl also made it harder to keep whatever feelings I had at bay.

When we eventually got to the house we decided that we would have 2 people per room. Maddy and I quickly ran up to chuck our bags and claim one. I knew for a fact that Emma and Carl would be sharing together and that stung like a bitch. I was seriously starting to doubt my ability to make it through the weekend.

"Can you tell I'm losing my shit right now?" I asked Maddy completely unaware if my calm mask was see through or not.

"No honestly you seem so carefree and chill." She assured me and I felt reassured to know that Emma wouldn't be able to tell how much she's actually getting to me.

"Good because I'm really not." I sighed. Maddy gave me another wicked pep talk before we headed back into the kitchen to meet the rest of the gang.

"Right give an hour to get ready before we go out?" Tyler asked. Go out? I didn't know we were doing that already on the first night.

"Where are we going?" I asked clearly not looking forward to going out. I was tired and a little overwhelmed.

"To the club?" Tyler explained. "Weren't you listening to me earlier?" Oh no I wasn't. I was ogling over Carl. Someone who I had been avoiding eye contact with since we'd got here because the memories were too much for me in that moment.

"Oh yeah that's right." I covered up my fuck up and went back up to the room to get ready with Maddy. I had to look as good as possible.

...

Maddy and I took our time doing our makeup and hair and I also took my time in freaking out over my stupid feelings that I wished would just disappear. Once we'd just finished and we're about to chuck on our clothes Emma came strolling into the room. My stomach churned at her presence and I was actually kind of happy that she looked cheap.

"Hey girlies." He cheered sitting on my bed with an overly happy expression. She was so fake I couldn't stand it.

"What's up?" Maddy spoke so I didn't have to.

"Just wanted to clear the air before tonight." She said looking at me. Clearly she knew there were some bad vibes circulating the group, well how can there not be when my best friend literally fucked my ex.

"How so?" Maddy continued trying to help me out because she knew if I was to start talking who knows what woulda come out of my mouth.

"Well Ava I've just been feeling a little bit of hostility from you since you got back." She began and I couldn't stay silent any longer.

"Hostility?" I laughed and she raised her eyebrows, unimpressed with my response.

"Yes. Hostility. Sorry to say but you've been a bit of a bitch to me and Carl since you came back." She lost the fake attitude and just went for nasty. Her comment pissed me off so much that I saw red and I couldn't hold back.

"How the fuck would you know if I've been a bitch to Carl?" I laughed sarcastically but didn't give her the chance to answer. "You've hardly been with him since I've been here. I haven't seen you at his house, at Lips house, in his room so how the fuck would you know what I'm like with him?"

"Because we're together. He tells me things." Together? I was going to vomit.

"Oh so you're together?" I laughed again and her face only grew angrier. "Does he know that?" Maddy snorted which earned her an evil glare as well.

"Listen..."

"No you listen, I don't care what you think you and Carl have because as far as I'm concerned you were just a fuck to get over me. You were a second option and also a very shitty friend so I don't have any interest in clearing the air because quite frankly I don't want to be around you. The only reason I'm even here is because your 'boyfriend' begged me to come." I smiled sweetly while her mouth hung wide open in shock. I guess she wasn't expecting that outburst, neither was I. But fuck it felt good to get out.

...

We all met back in the kitchen, everyone seemed cheery, even myself. Except for Emma,I think what I said to her might've hit deep but I was glad. Not that I was jealous but what they did really fucking sucked and it was something I couldn't just get over.

Carl was making it hard for me to keep my distance, he looked really good dressed in his nice clothes. Plus he was giving me the eyes that made my stomach flutter. Jesus I hadn't felt like this in the longest time. It felt like I'd jumped back in time and he had me pinned again.

"We all ready?" Marty asked and we all nodded.

"Cheers to a good night." Tyler yelled and we all took a shot. I caught Carl give me a wink as he threw back his.

What've I gotten myself into