Sexual Frustrations

34. You've saved my life

The next morning I had a plan set out for my mom. One that I thought would genuinely help her out, give her some sort of life. It was going to be hard for both of us in many different ways. I was going to have to work through my anger and resentment and try to help. She was going to have to work hard at getting clean. It was going to take effort on both parties and I was prepared to do it, the only problem would be if she was.

I saw Lip in the morning and he gathered me into a big hug.

"Are you okay?" He asked and I sighed.

"I will be."

"Did you and Carl talk?" He asked, id completely forgotten about that small issue. Fuck.

"No." I groaned. "I had other problems surface." I shrugged and he nodded in agreement. My mother's new drug habit was going to have to take centre stage at this time. My issues with Carl were just going to have to wait, as much as that sucked.

"That's fine, you sort this out but don't leave it too long." I nodded. Lip had always been so understanding but I knew that I was going to have to have this conversation with Carl as soon as possible because it was so unfair on the both of us.

Speaking of the devil he joined us into the kitchen.

"You okay?" He asked me and I nodded. "You ready for today?"

"Yup." I sighed.

"You sure you don't want me to come with you?" He asked and I couldn't help the smile on my face.

"Thank you but I need to do this on my own." I knew that would be for the best. "But I'll come see you guys after."

...

I wasn't exactly sure where I would find her. I was sure she didn't have a fixed address. I decided to think back to life here and check the spots where the junkies usually hung around. The fact that I was searching these spots for my own mother hurt so deeply but I had to push those thoughts aside.

I asked a few people where I could find her and they'd directed me to the train station.

I slowly walked around finding a few people and sure enough I saw her curled up on the floor and my heart just shattered even more which I didn't think were possible.

"Mom?" I choked out and her head snapped up to me. I wasn't sure if her appearance now would ever stop shocking me.

"Oh..hi." She said standing up, I could tell she was shocked. She probably expected to never see me again, I guess I expected the same thing.

"Can we uh go for lunch?" I needed to get her out of this environment.

"Um yeah sure.." she said quickly standing and following me away. Here goes nothing.

...

We sat and ordered a small lunch, I needed to keep a strong stomach. The silence between us was awkward. She was the first one to break it.

"I didn't think I'd see you again." She laughed awkwardly and I nodded.

"I wasn't going to come back." I admitted honestly. After a few more minutes of silence I decided to rip off the bandaid and just get to the whole reason I'd come back.
"How much do you owe?"

"Oh baby, no. I should never have..."

"How much is it mom?" I cut her off. She looked embarrassed.

"$350" I sighed in relief. It was less than I expected.

"Okay I'll give you the money," She was going to intervene but I placed my hand on top of hers to stop her. She was surprised at my affectionate gesture, so was I. "But you need to make a few promises for me."

"Anything." She said, I could see the tears brimming in her eyes and she gripped my hand tightly.

"We're going to come up with a plan together. I'm going to pay your debt but you're going to go to rehab okay?" Her face was a bit shocked at first but she didn't protest. "Well look around for a few places but you have to go. It's going to be an in-house rehab. And you have to try."

"I will baby I promise." Tears were streaming down her face and I had to bottle in my own.

"You'll attend the rehab no matter how long it does for. 6 months, 12 months whatever. And you're gonna cut ties with all of your druggie friends mom." She nodded along. She was way more agreeable than I expected. She must've known she needed this.
"So when you get out I'm gonna send you some money every month, as long as you stay sober okay? You're gonna use the money and get a place and look for a job okay?"

"You don't need to send me money baby," She was sobbing now and I felt the tears drop down my cheeks too. Her hand still tightly gripping mine.
"But I have an idea. Instead of sending me money, can I come to Australia with you?" Her words took me by complete and utter surprise.
"I promise I'll pull my weight. I'll get a job, 2 if I have to and I'll get my own place. I just know that being here is no good for me. I know too many people who got outta rehab and went right back to it because that's all there is here. I need a fresh start."

I didn't even consider her coming to Australia with me at first. I didn't think she would do it, at first I was apprehensive. She gave me a few moments to think it over.
Maybe this would be good for her. It was good for me, it potentially saved my life and maybe it could save hers too. She was right, her whole life for years had been drugs and it wouldn't be easy to just cut ties with everyone.

"Yeah mom." I agreed. "You can come stay with me." She began to sob at my words. She stood up and wrapped me in her arms, crying hysterically into my shoulder and I couldn't help but cry as well. My mom might actually come back.

"You've saved my life Ava." She sobbed. "I don't know how I'll ever repay you."

"You don't need to repay me mom." I said pulling away and wiping her face. "Your new life will be enough." I nodded and she sobbed even harder.

We agreed that within the next few days we would visit some rehab centres and make some applications. I was going to go back to Australia when the time was right and I'd send for her when she got out. Things might actually be okay for her.

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