Sexual Frustrations

30. Insatiable

As expected, I got a major interrogation curtesy of Lip as soon as I got in the car.

"Well we had sex." I admitted bashfully. I wasn't embarrassed to tell him, I told Lip practically everything. I guess I was just confused.

"So are you guys back together?" That was the question I dreaded hearing because I honestly didn't know. Were we back together? We hadn't talked about it.

"I don't know." I huffed accepting defeat.

"Well if someone came up to you and asked if you were single what would you say?"

"I guess I'd have to say no right?" This is why I loved Lip, he mad things so much simpler in my head.
"But, can I do this again?" I groaned. Could I really go through this all again. Last time we ended so badly and things got dramatic pretty quick.

"Well why did things even end between you two anyway?" Lip asked and the realisation hit me like a tonne of bricks. It was my fault. The way I felt about Carl was starting to freak me out and I ended things.

"Things got too serious and I got scared." I shrugged almost shameful to admit. At the time I wasn't ready for how fast things were going, I didn't want something so intense and so serious.

"Well how do you feel about him?" Lip asked as if it were the most simple question in the world.

How do I feel about Carl Gallagher? I wouldn't even know where to begin. He is my best friend, he knows me better then anybody and id like to think the same about him. I have an intense and overwhelming attraction towards him that doesn't seem to fade no matter what I do. I guess I'm drawn to him. I trust him with my life. He irritates me more than anybody else, god he makes me angry.
Do I have real feelings for Carl? I guess it would be naive of me to say no. Of course I had feelings for me. I dated him, we've known each other intimately for a long time. I had feelings for him 4 years ago and I guess I still had feelings for him now. Why would I bother spending time with him the way we had been if I didn't?

"I like him." I blushed.

"No shit." Lip rolled his eyes at what I thought was a big reveal of my feelings. "Do you love him? Do you want to be with him?"

"Love?" I nearly spat, surely not. "But I don't know, I guess I do want to be with him but I'm not the same person I was 4 years ago." I sighed. This was were things always got complicated. I had a different life now which was across the globe. I had friends, a job, a house. I couldn't leave that all behind for someone who was my past could I?

"Neither is he," Lip reminded me, which was very true. Carl had changed a lot in our time apart as well.

"But my life isn't here anymore Lip." I sighed, getting it off my chest. I tried to ignore and push aside the fact that I would have to leave but sooner or later it was going to happen. There was no point in pretending as though that wasn't a factor.

"You need to talk to him." He told me and I knew that to be true. I should be having this conversation with Carl not his brother. I just wasn't ready to potentially ruin how good things were between us. But this wasn't fair. I would have to have this conversation with Carl, we both needed clarity. But first I needed a  nap.

...

I slept unintentionally for a few hours. I didn't even realise how tired I was until my head hit the pillow. All the mixed feelings must've tired me out.

"Ava!" I heard Carl's voice call. The warm feeling I felt at the sound of his voice only confused me more. I needed to talk to him about what we were and what was going to happen desperately.

I walked into the kitchen to find him standing there against the bench. I had it bad.

"Hello," I greeted him, confused at his presence.

"Hello." He smirked and took three big strides to stand in front of me. Before I could say anything he grabbed my face with both hands and kissed me. There went away all coherent thoughts.

I wrapped my arms around his neck and he deepened the kiss, his tongue roughly entering my mouth and exploring. Fireworks erupted in my stomach and I knew I was completely wrapped around his finger.

He walked us backwards until my back hit the kitchen bench but our kiss didn't slow down. He bent slightly and wrapped his arms around my waist, hoisting me up onto the bench. He stood inbetween my legs, lips still attached to mine. I wrapped my legs around him wanting him closer to me. Suddenly the realisation hit me that we weren't exactly alone in the house.

"Lip..." I pulled away trying to warn Carl but his lips only moved from mine to my neck. His neck kisses were almost enough for me to say fuck it and just give Lip one hell of a show.

"Out." He groaned against my skin. It took a while to register what he said but once I did I was one happy woman. I wanted him so badly. In a quick movement Carl pulled me off the bench and spun me to face it so my back was pressed against him.
"See what you do to me?" He whispered in my ear pushing his erection into me. The goosebumps prickled my skin and I felt a wave of pride.

"Wait until you see what you've done to me." I teased back, knowing how wet I was already.

"I can't wait to find out." He said slowly pulling my shorts and underwear down my legs. The anticipation was killing me and I couldn't see him or what he was doing. All I could do was feel him. Once my bottom half was naked I felt his hand trail up my inner thigh slowly. The feeling of his rough warm hand slowly trailing my thigh caused a moan to escape my mouth. I knew he'd be smirking in cocky satisfaction but I didn't care.
When he finally touched me there it was like a rush of relief.

"You are so wet." He purred in my ear while slowly rubbing me, causing only the slightest of build up in my stomach but I could still feel it there. My eyes fluttered shut and I was drinking in the sensation of his fingers. His other hand pushed my back so my chest was pressed to the bench and my ass was in the air.

"Stay like that." He said into my ear and his hand disappeared. I was disappointed at the loss of contact but so excited for what was coming. I felt so exposed but there was something so sexy about it.

After a couple of minutes I felt his hands grip onto my hips and felt him at my entrance. Without another world he slowly slid inside me and a cry escaped my mouth. He gave me a minute to process the sensation before he slowly pulled out and slammed back in earning a loud moan. He developed a rhythm thrusting in and out, driving me absolutely crazy and spilling profanities.

"Fuck." He gasped and I knew he was close. He started to slow his thrusts but I didn't want that. I started moving my hips to meet his faster and faster.
"Ava I'm getting close," he warned but I didn't want to slow down because the build up was growing faster and faster and my heart was pounding.

With one final thrust I came around him calling out his name and not far behind me he came undone himself. We were insatiable.