Depression is hitting hard. I feel heartbroken and just... I don't know. I'm so alone. I'm lonely and everything is so much. I'm having suicidal thoughts again. I also want to self harm. I knew giving myself the reward of a pencil sharpener would end badly. I told myself I'm better now so I can trust myself. I can't. All I can do is stare and imagine the blood trickling down my thighs and staining my thin shorts. My flesh aches, begging for a bloody release. Please. Help me. Make it stop. I don't want to go to school. I don't want to be alone. I want my friends at the hospital. They are my safe space. My safe space has been taken away. I'm going to have a breakdown and get sent to inpatient. Please. No.
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RandomI give you the key to my diary-- the key to my internal mechanisms. As of today, I will make an entry every day detailing my life. I can't tell you why I want to share, but I do. I think some things need to be shared to destroy the stigma around the...
