I give you the key to my diary-- the key to my internal mechanisms. As of today, I will make an entry every day detailing my life. I can't tell you why I want to share, but I do. I think some things need to be shared to destroy the stigma around the...
The last day of inpatient was awful. You aren't allowed to leave until your doctor comes and sees you, and let me tell you. The doctor took his sweet time getting there. It wasn't until 8pm that he finally showed up. At that point I was livid and in tears. I wanted to go home soooo badly.
I already hated the doctor to begin with, but that just made me even more upset with him. Now, I've got to rant a bit about this guy. He's Indian and has a complicated name so I don't remember to spell it. I'll just refer to him as doctor poo like we all did at the hospital.
This doctor was the most insensitive person I've ever met, so I don't understand how he got into the mental health field. He told Toby he was cutting for attention. He basically told me that I should be ashamed and feel guilty for wasting space in the hospital when I didn't even deserve help because I have a good life compared to others. He said my feelings were overall invalid. It sucked.
There was also this one girl, who I won't name seeing as I actually discussing her issues, who was in foster care. She'd been in several abusive homes, and her current situation was abusive. The doctor flat out refused to let her talk to CPS, and he sent her right back to the family. The girl told us that when she went back shed either kill her family or herself. I saw her in PHP and apparently she got kicked out as soon as she was discharged. I don't know where she's living now. Well get to everything in php during the next diary entry. I have a lot to talk about from what happened today, so I'll end my background information here for now.
Today I started out the day pretty well. I even had time to make tea to bring to school, which was awesome. I completed an entire semester of my online class and this is only day three! I'm super excited about that. Hopefully within the next week I can finish the second semester. Then, I might be able to switch my classes out so that I have more senior release. That would be nice.
After that, I had senior project. I wasn't in there very long before... I got my braces off!
Sorry for the crappy pic. I honestly hate smiling with teeth.
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Sadly, the orthodontist went by fast and I had to return to school around lunch time. After lunch, I headed to German class and some guy actually sat next to me we talked a bit, and seemed to click decently. It's nice to have a sort of friend. I was working on my Japanese work, and apparently he even used to practice Japanese like me. It's pretty cool.
Now, every day in German class we go on a walk. Today on the walk I caught a toad, and it was super tiny and cute. I loved it, and honestly it shocked my teacher.
After German I was liked the usual 2.5 miles home. It was worse than I remembered, because the Texas heat can be so unrelenting. I still made it home though, which is good. I didn't do much beyond that. I just caught up on YouTube and ended up watching idubbbz newest content cop. It was so great, especially the diss track at the end. I've had it on loop ever since, and I've memorized a good half of it. I'll link the song below. It's just so good. Don't watch it if cussing offends you though. It's a bit vulgar.
Anyways that's all for today! Things have been pretty good.
Question of the day: Do you watch YouTube? If so, what's your favorite channel? I have several favorites including idubbbz, filthy Frank, and some musicians.
