you're not alone [k.q]

*chapter 21*

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ANNA'S POV

"Anna?" Kellin asks. When he says my name, he takes in a sharp, surprise breath. I really don't have he desire to talk to him... Alright. I'm lying. I've been dying to hear his voice. I really do miss him, but in order to move on, I need to quit him cold turkey, right?
"Yeah," I say.
"What do you need, Anne? I've missed you so much," Kellin confesses. I hope he wouldn't do some shit like this. I really like Oliver, and I am going to begin our future relationships with dates. That's a good way to get to know each other, and I don't want to hurt Oliver. I can't hurt Kellin, he's hurt me already.
"I'm not calling to talk about getting together, Kellin. I'm calling because I wanted to know why the hell you were at my house yesterday. And I want to know why you're being so nosy," I snap. If I'm going to get my point across, then I need to make it short and sweet. Like ripping the bandaid off.
I hear Kellin sigh, but it doesn't sound like an upset or disappointed sigh, it sounds like Kellin's in... pain. I want to ask what is wrong, but I really need to stop caring.
"I went over to your place because- well," he sighs again. "Because I wanted to try and get another shot, but you were out with... Oliver." Kellin spits out Oliver's name with disgust and hatred poor fully hidden behind his voice.
Of course Kellin is trying to get another chance. He is noticing that I am moving on. Hey, he is noticing. Thank God. For my sake, and his, we need to move on. I mean, we have to. Neither of us will get anywhere if we are still hung up over each other. That's why I'm going out with Oli.
"Kellin, I know you've tried. But you're not getting another shot. I'm sorry for you, but you've noticed that I am moving on. And I am proud of myself for moving on so quickly after ending our relationship. But I believe that we both know now that we were oblivious to the fact that our love was just... not... strong or real enough," I say before Kellin cuts me off.
"Anna, stop saying that bullshit to comfort yourself! You know, you fucking know that we can make it. We can make it through this. No, we haven't fought like this before, but Anna, baby, there is a first time for everything. I know and you know that I can get better. Don't you hear me begging? I know I shouldn't have treated you like shit when you were trying to comfort me.
I am so fucking sorry!" Kellin cries out. I can hear his voice crack. "Stop being like this, Anna. You need me, and you know that. I need you! Without you, I feel so fucking empty all the time. I'm not alright, okay? Can't you see? Oh, that's right, you haven't. You've been too busy lying o yourself!
Anna, Oliver is not 'it' for you and you can see it. Stop fucking lying to yourself, just please see that I am right."
How dare he?
"Kellin you don't know shit. I am trying to get over you. You were a douchebag and I already told you, I wasn't gonna sit around and get fucking treated like a bitch. It was even before Mitch that I saw a difference in you. You stopped making me feel special like you used to." I am crying now. Great.
"You only told me that you love me when I had to say it first. It was like you'd stopped trying. Yes, there were a few times when you were amazing. But through our first two years, I could see that you loved me even when we were bickering. I could see that you loved me, when you wrote songs for me, when you sang to me, and I miss that. Kellin, I miss you," I cry out.

Great, the final confession: made. I still want Kellin.