you're not alone [k.q]

*chapter 13*

     KELLINS POV

   Broken.

   Alone.

   Scared.

   Fear.

   Nothing.

   Those words can be used to describe what and how I am feeling at the moment. Hearing Anna say "Yes," when I asked her if we were done, it ruined me.

   Anna was supposed to be my wife. We were supposed to have a son, then a daughter. Alin Mitch Quinn Bostwick and Sarah Rose Quinn Bostwick. Now, that dream is over.

   I was supposed to wake up and see her beautiful, glowing smile every morning. I was supposed to run my hands through her brown curls. She would smile and tell me to quit. I'd then kiss her cute little nose and whisper that I loved her.

   There's no hope for that, now. She can't handle me.

   Where is it? I lunge to my cabinet and push every last thing out of the way until I see the reflection of the blade. Stop, I warn myself. Don't fall into old habits.

   Fuck it.

   I grab the blade and sit up against the wall. I place the blade on my skin and just as I'm ready to destroy myself, I hear my mother yell my name.

    ANNAS POV

   Another long week has gone by. Kellin and I don't even look at each over in the hallway. I've been riding the bus to school everyday. Its not as bad as I thought it would be.

   As for my emotions, I feel dead and empty inside. I can only imagine how Robin feels.

   Now, I question if Mitch and Robin would last forever, too.

   If I would've married Kellin one day, would I have regretted it? I mean, some catastrophe was bound to happen one day. Would I have backed out of the marriage? I'd like to think that I would stay; marriage is a sacred thing.

   I walk through the crowded halls and I hear my name being called. "Anna! Wait!" the voice shouts. I turn around to see Austin pushing through the walking students to reach me. I give him a 'what?' look.

   "Hey, I heard about you and Kellin. And I was wondering if you wanted to, you know, see a movie?" Austin asks casually.

   Really? I just broke up with my boyfriend and he is asking me on a date. Austin walks alongside me, awaiting my answer. "Austin, you're great, but I can't. I just got out of a long relationship, and I can't..." I trail off.

   He gives me an understanding look and nods. "That's understandable. Maybe some other time in the future?" he asks, a hopeful look in his eyes.

   No. "Sure," I say. I don't want to be mean. "Awesome," Austin says. "Sorry if it was too soon, Anna," he says while walking away. I shoot him a fake smile and continue my walk to class.

   When I arrive in Miss Helgadore's class, I am greeted by a smirking Vic Fuentes. Yuck.

   "What?" I spit, knowing it is about Kellin and I.

   "Please, give me another chance?" he jokes.

   I glare at him and take my place next to Oliver in the back. 

   "Hey," he gives me a sympathetic smile.

   Seriously? I am a strong woman. I don't need all of this sympathy.

   "Oliver, I don't need your sympathy," I whine. He looks taken aback by my statement, but it doesn't bother me.

  

   "Well, I was wondering," he starts. I cut him off.

   "You're not asking me out, too, are you?" I ask. He blushes a deep red.

   "Only as friends," he clarifies. "A buddy of mine is coming over this weekend and we are having a bonfire at the beach. I was wondering if you want to come?" he asks.

   Ugh. Should I, or should I not? 
  No.

  

  

   "Oliver, can I give you a raincheck?" I ask.

   "No, you're coming," he concludes. "Whether you like it or not, I am picking you up on Saturday and you will have fun."

   Lie. "I have a thing to do with Robin this weekend," I lie.

   Oliver smirks. "The more the merrier, she can come also." I glare at him playfully. "I'm not getting out of this, am I?"

   He shakes his head, meaning no. I laugh and class begins.