chapter 11

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by http-emily

by http-emily

Mitch has officially been gone for one week. School has been in for one week. Kellin has been hating the world more and more for every passing day.

Kellin has been showing his anger towards me more and more. I'm trying to be there for him. I really am. But Kellin is constantly picking ridiculous arguments with me and I can only take so much.

I understand that Mitch is gone, it hurts me too. He shouldn't be taking his anger out on me. He loves me. I think...

No, he loves me.

*Flashback*

"Hey, what are you doing?" I ask. Kellin was going through my phone.

   "Anna, what is your fucking problem?" Kellin demanded.
   I cower down. "Kellin, I didn't say anything. Why are you being like this?"
   "You know... I don't know, Anna. I'm sorry."
   Kellin sits down in the chair next to me. He immediately breaks down into tears. I take him into my arms and rub his back, doing my best to comfort this broken, crying boy in my arms. His body bounces up and down because he is crying so hard.

"Kellin, can we sit on the couch or on my bed. My feet are going numb," I say trying to lighten the mood. He sniffles and nods. I take in his facial expression. Behind his blood-shot, green-blue eyes, I know he is broken inside. With Mitch gone, Kellin is dying inside slowly. Besides me, Mitch was the only one who could keep Kellin together.

Actually, I don't think I can keep Kellin in one piece anymore. Maybe I never could....

*End of Flashback*

After school, Oliver asked me for my number. I gave it to him, of course. It would be nice to escape from all of this drama with Kellin and have a normal conversation with someone.

Robin. I haven't seen Robin since the funeral. I know she's grieving, so I haven't texted or called her.

As I sit down in Kellin's truck, I feel my butt vibrate. I lean against the padded back rest and pull my phone out from my pocket.

1 New Message: from Oli.
-Hey American - O

I quickly type in a reply because Kellin starts the car.
-Hey, British lad. -A

"Who's that?" Kellin asks while turning a corner.

"Oliver," I say truthfully.

"Why the hell are you talking to him?" he says after a moment of silence.

"Just because," I tell him. Really, Just because. I just want a normal conversation for God's sake.

"Didn't I tell you not to talk to him?" he growls.

"No, you asked me not to, And I told you I wanted to be friends with him. It was just a friendly 'Hello', Kellin."

I really don't want to start and argument with him, so when my phone vibrates, I ignore it.

"Do whatever you want to, Anna. God. Just forget about me," he snaps.

When he pulls up to my house, I look at him, hurt by his words. But I am prepared to hurt him even more.

"Maybe I will."