Suicidal **CURRENTLY EDITING**

Chapter 14

Songs for this chapter:

The Lonely Hour (Acoustic) - Sam Smith

Things You’ve Never Done - Passenger

The Mess I Made - Parachute

Harry's POV.

*"I was going to take a cab to your house but I can't exactly remember the address."* Jennifer texted me and I swallowed the lump in my throat, forcefully moving my thumbs onto my keypad, trying to sort out my scattered thoughts and feelings in order to remember where I lived.

But they all know you kissed him.

I had been crying for the past two hours and I couldn't stop.

I read their words to me over and over, watching my twitter followers drop by the thousand because of this.

I just didn't know who took the picture and gave it to someone last night. We were all drunk and I could barely even remember kissing Louis, let alone having my third drink. I didn't expect any of the people in that room to even think of posting it somewhere. I trusted every single one of them and if I found out who did it, I don't know if they would remember doing it or if I'd even be able to forgive them.

*"Are you coming now?"* I asked senselessly.

*"Well I was hoping to. Unless you don't want me to, because that would be a whole different story."* She said in attempt to make me laugh and I barely even thought of smiling right now.

Did Louis know?

My thumbs danced across my screen, but didn't touch it as I tried to say something to her to let her know I was okay and that I wanted her to come.

But you don't want her. You want Megan.

I was waiting for that voice to taunt me and I shed a few more tears, biting down on my cheek until it throbbed.

When will you ever learn to let go?

I wiped my face, sitting up straighter and took a deep breath, telling her my address and that I couldn't wait to see her again.

I gathered myself, going to my bedroom and changed out of my pyjamas, throwing on my black trousers and the first jumper I saw in my closet.

Jennifer knocked at the door three times and I strode across the room, letting her in with a kiss to the cheek.

"Hello, love. How are you?" I asked and she let out a soft laugh.

"A little fuzzy in the head from last night," she began, stepping into the lounge with me. We sat on the couch and I slipped my arm around her shoulders comfortably, trying my best to not seem like I was sobbing an hour ago.

"I had so much fun, though." she said with a smile. "Your friends are very... Interesting. I think I'm going to want to play this Drunken Dare game with you all more often."

Never play it again.

"Yeah, they're all fun to hang out with. Especially when they're together." I said with a small laugh and she leaned into me more, a smile across her pink lips.

"Out of all the things I forgot last night, I can't get the image of you actually kissing Louis out of my head." She laughed and I felt myself go cold.

She doesn't know.

"Have you actually kissed him before?" She asked and I nodded, forcing a smile and a chuckle from my lips.