Suicidal **CURRENTLY EDITING**

Chapter 10

Harry's POV

Yet another girlfriend for One Direction's Harry Styles. Seems as thought he can't get enough.

Rising star Jennifer Adams seems to be getting her chance with One Direction member Harry Styles. Her way if getting to the top? Maybe we'll find out when they break up next month.

@harrystyles can't NOT have a girlfriend.

Not surprised Harry's with another girl. It happens every month, right?

Wonder if Harry Styles new girlfriend Jennifer Adams knows how many girls he's been with the past few nights?

This is probably just another set up with management again. They'll be over in a month.

Harry Styles. How many girlfriends? I forgot. There's too many. But how many heartbreaks? That'll take too long to count.

Harry and Louis are obviously together. Everyone accepts it too so I don't get why they won't come out instead of getting Harry to date random girls.

Shagging twelve girls a night? Harry Styles has a bit if an obsession. What would his girlfriend say?

I bit my cheek, trying to transfer the burning pain in my chest. The tissue throbbed the harder my teeth sunk down and I tried to forget about it.

I knew half the shit they were saying wasn't true so I don't see why I acted like it was. I knew they were making things up just to get popular because people would read it, yet I don't know why I was reading it. Especially when I knew that it would just make me feel this way.

I guess I was looking for a reason to know that I was right about myself. I would find out that I would have thousands of people agreeing that I was a shitty person and I would completely believe them all.

My cheek hurt too much and I loosened my jaw, the throbbing increasing as the blood pumped to that particular spot.

I let out a shaky sigh.

I didn't ask for this.

I didn't ask for all these girlfriends.

I didn't ask for all the hate.

I just wanted to be happy doing something I loved.

No one told me it would be like this.

Would I still have wanted to do it if they did?

Of course I would have. This has been my dream since I was young. I would have done every bit I could to be where I am today.

I couldn't be selfish like this.

There were people with real problems, not me. Some people just told a few lies and that's nothing to bitch and complain about.

It's nothing.

It's nothing.

My phone vibrated on my lap and my heart jumped, pounding for a few seconds before slowly relaxing.

I picked it up in my hands and lifted it to my ear.

"Hello?"

"Hi, it's Megan. I was just wondering how you were doing?"

She must've seen all the new drama that's been happening since Jennifer and I were seen again last night.

"I'm fine," I said. "You?"

"Great." She replied. "But you really are doing okay? There's nothing bothering you?"

I let out a shaky sigh, lifting my hand to my cheeks and relieved them of the salty tears I had cried.