Why Dont We Imagines||Wattys2018

Team||Zach Herron

-Requested-

                   

"Hey baby girl" Zach smiled as you walked over to the car. It was Friday, the day you looked forward to all week, the day Zach and Daniel picked you up from the hell you spent 5 days a week at and brought you back to the why don't we house were you stayed until Sunday. Between school and the band you and Zach didn't get to see each other as much as a normal couple would so weekends were your time together, the time you enjoyed so much. As you got closer Zach walked over to you, wrapping his arms around your shoulders as he towered over you before placing a kiss on your forehead right in the middle of the student parking lot. You felt a blush sweep your puffy cheeks. All the assholes who brought you down were looking at you being happy and in love and that was possibly the best feeling you could have.

Your life wasn't easy, you had an extremely rough childhood that caused you to grow up with various forms of mental health problems, non of which Zach knew about. You had been dating for just over six months and you had made the choice not to tell him. Although sometimes you wanted too, sometimes you wanted to sit and cry on his shoulder and tell him all your thoughts and feelings- you couldn't. Whenever you went to your doctors and they pulled out your very large file and asked you how you were going you couldn't help but feel like an absolute freak. You hated that, feeling like you weren't normal, like you needed to be fixed, like you were broken and damaged goods. Zach wouldn't want damaged goods.

"Love birds, lets go" Daniel called from the window causing both of you to chuckle as you got in the front seat and Zach sat in the back, holding your hand on the console in the middle of you and Daniel, rubbing your hand with the pad of his thumb. Although normally the rides were filled with horrible singing (on your end) and bad in seat car dancing (from everyone) but today had been a particularly long day, so you fell asleep as soon as your head laid against the window.

When you woke up hours later you found yourself in Zach's comfortable bed, you felt a little happier as you always did when you were at the boys house. Here things were safe and you felt so cared for, but that wouldn't change everything in a matter of months, possibly not even years. Frowning when you realized that Zach wasn't in bed with laying next to you, you got up and shuffled downstairs, the kitchen lights being the only ones on and there wasn't a sound to be heard in the house.

Walking into the kitchen you walked up to Zach who's back was facing towards you.

"Where's all the boys Zachy?" You asked, causing him to jump a little as he hadn't realized you were up yet. When he turned around his eyes were red and watery causing you to worry. Walking up to him and standing inbewtween his legs you cupped his face.

"What's wrong Zachy?" You asked, your eyes looking down into his.

"Why didn't you tell me?" He whispered, his voice breaking causing your heart to crack a little by the amount of pain laced in his voice.

"Tell you what?" You asked, crunching your eyebrows in confusion as you looked even deeper into his eyes. Turning around Zach picked up something before turning back around, and that's when it hit you in the face as he passed you the black notebook you had written everything in.

"Zach.. you weren't supposed to read that" You whispered, stepping back from him you felt your eyes start to water while your eyes looked at the black book laying in his hands.

"When I brought you in from the car the book fell out of your bag and it was opened. I assumed it was just bio homework or something. I just picked it up to put it back but then a word caught my eye, and then I couldn't stop. You went through so much, everyday you go through so much and you never once told me, you never once let me help you. Why? I feel like such a horrible boyfriend. You acted so happy when you were with me and never once did I question you when you went home, but now I know how bad it was when you went home" Zach said, tears now falling from his eyes as he threw the book back down on the table.

To say he was devastated was an understatement. For the last two hours Zach had read every word, every sentence of your feelings, he truly got to see how fucked up you were and the effect that it had on him was even worse.

"I didn't want you to see how fucked up I was" You whispered as you looked down on at the floor. Within seconds Zach shot up out of his seat and made his way over to you, cupping your face with his hands and forcing you to look up at him.

"That's what you think? That's what your worried about?" He whispered, his face close to yours as both of your watery eyes locked. You were at a loss of words so you simply nodded.

"The only thing Im thinking right now is how I should have been there for you. None of this changes my feelings for you, none of this makes me love you or want you less. I just wish you would have told me, I wish I could have been there to hold you when you needed me Y/n. God I love you so fucking much and to know you delt with all of this alone for the last 6 months is heartbreaking. We are a team now, good or bad. That means you don't going through things alone, you don't face pain alone, because you aren't alone anymore" He told you before placing his soft wet lips on yours, creating the most emotional and loving kiss either of you had ever had.

You thought you had to deal with everything alone, because for 17 years you did and you had trained yourself well, but now you and Zach were a team and that meant never truly facing everything alone.

He loved you, even though in your eyes you were messed up and unnormal. He looked passed all your flaws and loved you more than anyone ever had.

That's when you knew he was the love of your life.

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