Why Dont We Imagines||Wattys2018

I can't||Jack Avery

-Heavily One Tree Hill inspired-

You sat in the bedroom you and Jack shared, tears falling down your face as you stared blankly at the grey wall- the ones you two had painted together when you and the boys moved into the new house.

"Yes, thank you" You whispered as the person on the other end hung up, you felt the phone slip out of your hands and onto the floor, it probably cracked, but you didn't care.

You had heard a lot of horrible things in your 24 years of life, things that made you question absolutely everything, things that were sad, sometimes heart cracking, things that hurt much more than they should have. But never once had you heard words that made it feel like the whole world went silent, like suddenly everything was grey and you were numb, you were absolutely broken.

But theres always a first for everything and today was the first time you had heard a piece of news that made your whole world shatter.

You heard the door open, you heard a muffle of Jack's voice but you couldn't make out what he was saying but with every word he spoke you felt your heart break even more.

It wasn't until Jack bent down in front of you and placed a hand on your knee that you snapped back into reality.

"its okay if this one was negative baby, it takes some couples a long time but I promise you the day it comes out positive it will be the best day of our lives" Jack said with a large smile, the smile 30 minutes ago you would have killed to see- but now it was just killing you.

"And as soon as we hear back from the doctor, we will keep trying, all night" Jack said with a silly smirk, a sentence that 30 minutes ago you would have giggled at, now killed you.

"P-please, stop"You whispered, not being able to speak any louder as you stood up. You felt your knees shake from under you. You were devastated, broken, frankly you had never hated yourself more than right now and Jack was just making it worse.

"Baby whats going on? its okay"Jack said, walking up to you and placing his soft palm on your wet cheek as you let a new batch of tears fall. Worry had now completely taken over his face as he looked at you, trying somehow to figure out what was going on- but he failed.

"The doctor called right before I was about to take the test" You whispered, looking down at the floor, not being able to tell him the news that you were sure would crush him inside.

"He said we weren't pregnant"You whispered as Jack pulled you into a hug.

"Its okay baby, we will try again and again and again and maybe even a few times after" He joked again, trying to lighten your mood. You pulled away, letting out a small sob as you looked at him.

"He didn't just say we weren't pregnantJack, he said we weren't ever going to be pregnant" You whispered, the voice crack you had been waiting for rang through his ears as the small that once sat high on his lips fell.

"Im so sorry" You whispered, pushing him away and walking back to the bathroom, the pregnancy test you were once about to use looking at you in the eyes as you let out a sob. This was your fault, all of this and now he hated you for it.

"Hey, listen to me. We will go to another doctor, we will get a second option and a third and if even after those appointments will they tell us that we can't have babies than we will adopt and we will have a family kids will kill for, do you understand me?" He asked softly as he walked into the bathroom, wrapping his arms around your waist and placed his head on your shoulder- trying to do whatever he possibly could to calm you down.

"I can't give you the one thing we want more than anything Jack, Im broken and I can't be fixed this time. Im the reason we will never have a family" You whispered as you turned around to face him.

"I want to have babies with you, I want them to have your eyes and personality, I want to have a family with you jack" You sobbed into his chest while he held you tight.

His heart was completely broken. Not because you two couldn't have children but because of how broken your words sounded, how devastated you were, how much hate towards yourself was laced in your words.

"We will have a family Y/n, do you hear me? No matter how we do it, no matter how long it takes, we will have a family okay?" He whispered as he placed a kiss to your hair, holding you tighter than ever as you cried in his arms.

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Heyo its lis and Im back((:

23 in fanfiction? thats absolutely crazy! 

I love y'all so much.

Until next time my dudes(: