Why Dont We Imagines||Wattys2018

I miss you||Zach Herron

You watched from behind the curtain as the boys sang their hearts out, again, just like they did every night. Never in the same place, but always with the same passion, the same smiles, and happiness that you were sure by now was infectious to all those who looked up at their stage with aw.

Your heart ached as you looked at Zach, images of the two of you flashing through your head like a stack of photos. Your gut dropped as you closed your eye, the deep breath you took in almost smelling like his favorite cologne, the one on all his sweaters. It was the smell that laced his neck, the place your nose laid while your body laid in his arms.

It was as if you could feel the warmth from his body next to you; something you hadn't felt in a long time. You missed him. You squinted your eyes as you tried to hold back your tears. You wouldn't cry on the job. Not here, not now.

One by one the boys walked off the stage, all giving you a smile as they high-fived you on the way. You had become like an honorary sixth member. You counted all of them as your best friend. All of them but Zach. From the moment you saw him, there was just something. Maybe it was the way he looked at you or the way he smiled. The way he asked how you were, talked to you for hours- never rushing or acting as he had somewhere else to be.

It didn't happen all at once between you too. But it happened fast enough for you to know what was happening, Zach did too. It was a secret for a while. A secret both of you enjoyed, something that somehow felt so right. But the secret wasn't the problem, that wasn't what ended you. Fans had started making guesses, that there was something going on- that there was a girl in his life. There were two sides to that guessing. The ones who said they were happy if he was happy; the others who tore you down to the bone, who hated the very existence of you- and they didn't even know you.

So you looked the boy you were so head over heels in love with, that right now, at this time, you two couldn't be together. It was the hardest thing you ever had to do, to willingly give up the one boy who gave you everything.

Even after four months, the feelings hadn't gone away. Every time you two were in the same room, all this tension, sadness, and anger built ten stories tall. Every time he saw you, all he wanted to do was kiss you, to pour his feelings out; but he couldn't. He was hurting the same way you were.

The hurt was strong. It caused a lump in your throat, your chest to tighten, your blood to stop flowing. It was the kind of pain that made your knees shake and your feet want to give out. The kind that made you want to stand on a building and scream out your feelings but yet somehow made you feel like you were about to lose your voice.

You smiled to yourself as you heard the crowd give a final cheer for the night. Walking towards the room where your belongings were. You noticed how silent it was, almost as if you could hear a pin drop, the fan from the ceiling creating the only nose, everyone else silent in the other room and eating.

Just when you were about to turn around, the loud sound of the door shutting made you jump. Before the person behind you even talked, the tension, the butterflies swarming your stomach. It was Zach.

"Hi"He whispered, you could feel as he walked closer to you. You closed your eyes as your stomach jumped up and down. You hated how much you loved him, how his every little move made you love him more.

"Zach, please don't" Your voice sounded scratchy, but you were proud of yourself for being able to muster up enough words to not look like the fool you were for him.

"Tell me that you don't miss me. That you don't have a hard time sleeping when im not there. That your heart doesn't ache at the fact that I can't look you in those beautiful eyes of yours and tell you how I feel. Those three words that make your knees weak" Now Zach was right behind you, his fingers going up and down on your arms while his other hand tucked hair behind your ear.  You had missed his touch.

You turned around in the dimly light room, his eyes still more beautiful than ever.

"Zach-"

"Tell me to go, to move on, that you don't feel for me the way I deeply feel for you"He whispered, his lips just slightly hovering over yours. Your stomach flipping as the cologne you loved wafted up your nose.

You couldn't say those words. Even if you didn't mean it. Even if what was best for the two of you was to say it. You couldn't do it anymore, you couldn't distance yourself from him. You needed him, you loved him.

You bright your lips to his, the kiss starting off slow, gentle, soft. But within seconds it got fast and heated, his cold hands placed under your shirt and on your sides. He pulled you closer than possible, holding you tighter than ever. Refusing to let you go.

"I can't go on without you Y/n. I miss you. I miss every second that we could have been spending together. You are my everything. You always will be"

"I love you so much it hurts Zachary Herron"