dear fay,
i'm once again crying and shaking. before you even woke up, your doctors took you in for another scan to see where the cancer is before they do chemo with you in two days.
i still haven't seen your eyes open, and they took you away.
as you lay getting scanned by machines, i sit here in your room sifting through your sketchbook. there's a sketch of me in my leather jacket riding your penny board-the time i fell. there's a sketch of me sitting by the bonfire, the second time i saw you. and on the last page--
i just let out a sob, fay. on the last page there is a sketch of you and i sitting side by side on the park bench beneath the willow tree.
i...i can't even comprehend. most of these letters--no, all of them--left me in tears wondering why you would leave me.
most of these letters asked you if you thought of me, if you still loved me. obviously you do. i'm so sorry. these letters will probably make you hate me. be angry, hate me--just please.
please let me see your beautiful blue eyes one more time.
please let me kiss your perfect pink lips one more time.
please let me hear your beautiful flowing voice one more time.
please, fay, that's all i ask. i need you. i need you to be strong.
let's live a long life together, let's just be happy.
-z
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letters to fay // z.m.
Fanfictionthe love of zayn's life has just left him. what else does he have to do other than write her letter after letter? his greatest objective is to find her and find out why she left...but does he really want to do that? or will what he find scare him aw...
