Pregnant - JAHSEH ONFROY/XXXTENTACION

chapter 12

two chapters in one day yw (;

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Jahseh ♡

I've dug two graves for us, my dear,

Can't pretend that I was perfect, leaving you in fear

Oh man, what a world, the things I hear

If I could act on my revenge, then, oh, would I?

Some kill, some steal, some break your heart

And you thought that I would let it go and let you walk

Well, broken hearts, break bones, so break up fast

And I don't wanna let it go, so in my grave I'll rot . .

I held up my hand to have Ski, my best friend, to stop the recording. I haven't talked to him in awhile. He contacted me to see how I was doing just a few months ago, and we kept in touch. Just singing this song made me so shook. Tears already formed in my eyes.

"Fuck.." I whisper to myself, taking off my headphones. I walk out the recording booth, Ski walks over.

"Are you okay vro?" He asks.

I answer with a nod and grabbed my jacket. "I'll be back in a few hours. Take care of them." I pointed to the child asleep on the couch.

I drive off, going towards the nearest bar. I sit at the bar, ordering every strong drink there was, in every shot glass they had.

One drink after another. Shot after shot.

Cry after cry.

People watched. They stared. They laughed.

"Leilahni.." I moan. I look up at the bartender.

"Why did she leave?" I cried out, gripping an empty shot glass and holding onto some of my blonde dreads.

I slam my fist on the bar. "I know I messed up but I can't stand you gone." 

"Why did you do this to me!? I loved you!" Screaming now in anger, I threw down the shot glass and listened to it break. 

I held my head in my hands and stared at the table, tightly closing my eyes. "How could you leave me to be alone?"

"WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME?!"

"After everything we've been through . . "