BEFORE DAWN

chapter two 'consumed'

I watched as the police covered my parent's dead bodies and took them out, they asked Davin a few questions about what happened. I was too shocked to move, with cloudy eyes I watched the van take away my parents, take a way my source of happiness.
Things would definitely never be the same way again. From that moment I knew we were alone in the world. Just me and Davin .
Davin blamed himself for shooting at the their, I blamed myself for not being able to do anything when they needed me. They were buried and gone but not from our hearts, I could never be able to forget them and neither could Davin.

Few years past by and soon we had stopped mourning, life gradually returned to normal but not with Davin. He began smoking, drinking and keeping late night. I was depressed and devastated by the way he was turning out to be. I knew he couldn't get my parents death out of his mind, but he was letting guilt eat him up. I kept praying for him, it was all I could do.
Things began to change in the business too, Davin was to disoriented to take care of my dad's business and soon the Co share holders took it from us. We were almost left with nothing. I continued my studies and soon got admission to study medicine in Nsukka.
Davin had long ago put school out of his mind, I knew my father wouldn't be proud to see his son live this way, but still I couldn't blame him.

One hot afternoon, I was in my room studying when I heard a shout down stairs, Davin and lawerent were fighting again. It was becoming a normal routine with them.
'I said leave my house!' Davin barked.
'bro. Come on it was only a joke, besides she's your sister and not your girlfriend'
I knew the fight was about me, lawerent had always wanted to date me and I had always refused him. I was Surprised he was still at it. Davin on the other hand never liked the idea too.
'fine I'll leave, but I'll be back and trust me you don't want to get on my bad side. You won't like my return. ' lawerent stormed out.
'did you just threaten me? 'Davin turned to face him, but he was already gone.
I stood at the top of the stairs watching the episode, Davin turned and looked at me, 'it's nothing go back to your room '.
I sighed and walked away.

Later that night they both returned home drunk and laughing. I knew they had made up, it wasn't like them to argue for long.
A knock came on my door some minutes later, I got up to answer it and was shocked to see lawerent staring at me, so drunk.
'what do you want here? 'I was angry and afraid, I could feel the adrenaline pump into my stomach. I made to shut the door but he blocked it with his boots and staggered inside my room.
'to get what I always wanted ' he slurred ,staggering towards me.
'lawerent you are drunk, and Davin should not see you here' I moved back.
'hey,  come on I know you want me, you like me don't you? ' he laughed
'I don't want you here, please leave now' I searched the room for something to defend myself with.
'to hell with Davin anyways, he is drunk and asleep so.. He won't hear us'. He said grabbing me by my hair and pushing me down on the bed.

'please.. Please don't do this, I beg you ' I tried screaming but he pinned me down and covered my lips with his, kissing me greedily.
'watch me! ' he laughed pulling off my trousers. I started shouting but he slapped me in the face, making me shut up. Then he slid into me and started moving forcefully. He was raping me and I could not do anything to stop it.
Few minutes later, he came out of me and fell to the floor laughing. I was too weak to move, all my body ached me from struggling with him. My clothes were thorn and I was bleeding.
'you will never get away with this' I managed to say before he left the room.
I had been raped? Did this really just happen to me?. I cried hitting myself as hard as I could. Later that night I regained little energy and cleaned up myself, I felt irritated with my own body, I hated myself, I hated Davin. I hated the world for being so cruel to me.
I packed up a few things and left the house ,there was no use staying here, I had betrayed myself and my parents. I left without a word to Davin to an unknown destination.