The Mind of Blu

Im Fine

I'm Fine

Imagine going into school being afraid
You walk in and lose your humanity, lost in a cascade
Never happy, your mind wanders; lost in a parade
Depressed people say words don't hurt; they would rather trade

Trade their life for a new one
Now the problem has begun
Pushing you down, they spit on you
Everyday things just make you blue

You go home and always stay mute
your attention span becomes acute
You change from what you used to be
Being locked up and want to be free

Everyone asks if you're alright you say "I'm Fine"
You're hurt. You wanna be happy. You're trying.
A feeling in your gut you know you're dying
You try to do better yet everyone criticizes.

You get home and it follows you there.
So much stress, you begin to lose hair.
Sit in front of a therapist but never share,
Wanting to fight back knowing you'll lose, why would you dare!

Mind cloudy; things get deep
A bad dream you don't want to keep
You shoot yourself to ease your pain
crying about it everyday what do you gain

It's hard to keep going
You go home and have the tub flowing
Hop in with a kitchen knife
Praying to the Lord, forgetting life.

Dazing off while your blood leaks,
Now you feel your body getting weak.
One last breathe you are happy and smile
Had enough, deciding to leave the wild

This is a everyday thing
Everyone gets bullied, nobody's hands are clean!
No one cares until they hear the bell ring,
Or get home, get a deadly phone call: ring ring

"Excuse me ma'am/sir its an emergency your child has committed suicide"
Next thing they feel down inside
Parents can't stop crying b/c their baby has died
Parents asked everyday their baby said "i'm fine"
Turns out it was a lie

-Sin Fantasy