The Mind of Blu

Clown In The Frame.

Once upon a time ago was a kid
He grew up to think he would get big
Soon he will realize that it's rigged
Waking up to smells of the pool and a cig

Moved somewhere new with no say
Only because at the time he was a baby
Thinking back on it and find it crazy
Wish he had a say because his life leads to disaray

All his childhood saying he will never
But later on he laid in that treausre
As the song says " never say never" shouldve listened he'd be more clever
Now he looks for that treasure trying to recover

Had no one to look up to so he was alone
Searching throughout his life to find the man
In his mind he was just so gone
Because everyone says to him how do you expect to be a man if you wasnt raised by one?

Looking at himself in the mirror
He sees a child that is lost in the big mans world
Trying to figure out see if things will get clearer
They never do so his good life choices he hurled

Sticking to the drugs
Sticking to the failure in his mothers eyes
Sticking to the constant commotion in his head but he just shrugs
Telling everyone he's ok but it was all lies

Being attacked by his own lying image
Calling himself out his own name
Disgusted with what he sees his concious diminish
Doing this to him self he's to blame

His smile will make you think he's happy
In reality he's hiding behind a mask cuz he feels crappy
Doesnt want people to know and see that he has feelings
Makes up more lies making it like he's not a human being

Until he is left alone and he breaks down
Where only some people have seen him wear his frown
He writes so he can he hide when people surround
Can't keep it up he's starting to drown

This kid grew up to see everything else differently
Wishing that car that hit him killed him
Instead of him trying to himself deliberately
Never finding the courage to do it things get grim

Yelling to himself stop over and over and over
As the voices taunt him over and over and over
To where he just want to stop resisting
Even though every thought he has was him insisting

That kid is me living a lie in my own life
Looking back on everything that has happened and i hate it
But i believe in my lies so much that i follow it like its right
I just can imagine myself never being alone im just wont fit

This isn't me saying im depressed
It's me saying i'm disappointed in who I became
Everyone looking at me and i say its complicated this is what i mean i can't say less
I can tell you, you wouldn't be able to tell from my picture frame

-Sin Fantasy