The Mind of Blu

Dear Dad

When I was younger I wanted to be like you
Everytime we were together you were so cool
Always had my hopes up I was never blue
Always saying what was right your true

I slept over and always felt safe
Playing basketball for you so I wasn't a disgrace
Did my best to make you happy kept that good place
Now it's falling apart I trace

I grew up now and things changed
It's like what we did got rearranged
Yeah we care and we show is it real
Like what's up I come over get hurt what's the deal

I wanted to have fun and I came over
You taught me to hold my breathe under water
I couldn't breathe I need to move like I had a hangover
I could've drowned that would've been slaughter

I forgave you never held a grudge
You made it so hard to nudge
Is it bad I say I love you then misjudge
Or how you left marks that will never smudge

Beat me at my triumphant moment
Had me sitting there just. Frozen
In the end you didn't know I was broken
The you didn't even try to notice

There's too much of our history
Now to the point it won't surprise me
That when I get hurt I don't feel the misery
Cuz now it's it's insult to injury

I love you that can never stop
But you lost that relationship after that hand dropped
And my chest was beginning to pop
I'm not like your other son they don't call me rock

I'll grow up and understand more then you
One day I'll look back and try to forgive you
You've done to much and it's turned me blue
Because I did so much just to please you

Never asked to have your name
Because this is a burden I don't want to claim
Since I just see life as a game
I might as well lose I'm to blame

Live a good one hope you help my brother
Because I chose the easy way to live with my mother
I say this without a stutter
I had enough because I don't want to suffer

Sincerely,
Stan Jr